BECOMING A MYSTIC: Marooned

A Follower asks where he can find an account of my mystic experiences on this Blog. There are hints and affirmations throughout the Blog but no whole, progressive narrative account, so here it is:

I had spontaneous yearly experiences of mystical reunions with Reality from about 15 to 35 years of age. I kept them to myself for nearly 50 years.

They recreated me from a who to a what and gave me a sense of having existed from the beginning of all things to the end of all things; of belonging; and of “everything belonging to me” that others describe as “oneness”; an overwheming liquifying of my matter into pure joy; a profoundly thankful humility; a disappointment in not finding “God” there; a sense of knowing everything; of not existing anywhere but in the experiences; of knowing real reality of existence is the Reality I was experiencing; the frantic helplessness of desolation, of abandonment as each of the experiences ended.

As each of my experiences dissolved me back into my humanity I felt a keenness of loss, outcries of alarm, a profound, wrenching desperation of catastrophic bereavement. I scrabbled against it in futility. I felt marooned, a feeling that taints my human existence to this very second.

I was infused rather than taught or shown or guided. I remember there was nothing to see, hear, smell, physically feel, or think.

In one of my experiences a voice told me quite clearly and emphatically, ALL IS WELL. I was dumbfounded so the message was repeated three times …

The reason I was dumbfounded and deeply disappointed was I thought the message came for someone else. I looked around but there was no one else to see.

I was baffled for years over that message because I had not asked or thought of a question to which that might be the answer.

Another time, I was levitated out of my body. It happened without me noticing. When I did notice it seemed quite natural. I was overjoyed that God was ridding me of my body to take me up. Then I was bitterly betrayed on looking down to see my body still there about 15 feet below.

My conclusion now is there seems to be a Process into which I have been drawn, rather than “God”. This Process is nowhere near as limited as the human word “God” implies. It is benign, caring of all creation, guarding, guiding, aiding and comforting, a constant seemingly natural state of unending contentment, peace, tranquility, humility, gratitude, awe and joy. But it is not about making me a better human, though that, I think I can presume, is automatic, axiomatic. We are all more than merely human.

My sense of personality, character, body, mind, intelligence, intellect, did not exist in my MERs, nor did I miss them, expect them or need them.

I came away with the impression human bodies and brains die, but their spiritual knowingness become absorbed, added into this non-material Process of Reality beyond infinity that never dies. Reality seeks, but does not seek body, brain or mind it seems.

After MER, humans have no need of the anthropmorphic falsehoods of faith, hope or belief – after MER they KNOW. They are one with the Process, no longer needing gods or “God”. The experiences are fulfilling and keep being fulfilling after they’ve gone.

I was never given to believe humanity or individuals can invoke or influence this Process of Reality, either. In fact, being only human might be the reason so many humans have not yet had the experience of MER. Human attachment and egos are two strong deterrents among the many human attributes that come between us and this fulfillment.

The experiences were fulfilling beyond all ordinary human experience, imagining or knowledge. Reality seems to be the alpha and omega of everything, all knowing, a fundamental existential of being that just is, a given that can be taken for granted, does not need to be named. In Reality there are no names: everything just is and all is well. And I was and am that.

Between these experiences I toiled privately at the agony of being partly human despite the experiences’ development and continued effect on me – the continuingly joyous but alienating illumination of Reality and my true nature.

The stress of this growing alienation from “manmukh” – all things human – affected me severely.

The energy of the world, of the human spirit, is not compatible with the development of the spirituality of the ultimate reality of the Mystical Experience of Reality, (MER), in my experiences.

This struggle ruined my life, thankfully …

Now if I’m asked what I have especially taken away from my experiences I would say: Reality is a process. It is in charge. It never fails and is utterly benign …

Neverthless, at times the process got so desperate I developed and finalised the following secret plea to be rescued.

(At the time, I didn’t know how serious the act of writing can be, I just thought I was writing a poem. Later, the answer to this plea came by writing too and is also recorded here):

MAROONED

Divinity’s insouciant servants of the Light

Fly beneath my fears, over my plight,

Indifferent to my day as to my night.

Marooned in the humanity of my time,

Tired by glimpses of the divine,

Save me soon Lord, make me thine.

THE REPLY:

Marooned to solitude is your story;

Its contemplation leads you to my glory.

Love, understanding and compassion

Are the lessons of your life, your grace, your passion.

From the other side of Night,

I am your glory, your rescue Light …

1985.

(Nowadays I wouldn’t use the words “God”, “divine”, “faith”, “Divinity” or “Lord”. And I would call “the light” Reality, such a Light being a unique part of Reality.

(PS: The word “faith” has been bothering me. It signifies lack of real spiritual experience. So as I returned to this poem with my doubt about the rightness of the word the real word arrived. So I have deleted “faith” and as you will see, have inserted the more meaningful word “grace”).

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ANSWER TO A REQUEST FOR A MEETING

“I don’t think you would get much out of me in your human quest to thrive and survive.

“My interest in being merely human is waning by the hour nowadays as a quick read of my Blog, mysticexperiences.net will show you, unless you have a proclivity for such experiences, in which case you will understand my existence better by looking at the 6,000 studies of people like me made by Oxford University, now archived at Wales University.

“Without understanding what I am, you and I would only get mired in human banalities, much of which you seem to be intuiting yourself through anyway.

“You sound like a wonderful person. I send you todos bendiciones, todos!

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FREE WILL? HERE MAYBE, DEFINITELY NOT THERE

Throughout this Blog there are references to free will. Does the human race have it?

From my experience of pure consciousness in my mystical experiences of Reality there was no need for such a human concern as free will. It did not exist there.

In Reality, everything just is, in one satisfied determination, without further necessities.

Consideration of free will is only a human occupation. It does not need to exist in Ultimate Reality, where there are no names even, where nothing outside Itself exists, where everything in Itself is in place and All Is Well.

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THE APPEARANCE OF ADVERTISEMENTS ON MYSTICEXPERIENCES.NET

We are NOT monetarised!

Despite the appearance of unrelated advertising subjects on our pages, mysticexperiences is NOT monetarised.

However, as per the standard agreement with WordPress, that hosts us free of charge, WordPress sells advertising space on mysticexperiences and gets ALL the income.

Now, after two years, it looks as if we have become valuable as an advertising medium. The site has grown in readership by the thousands. It is read in Canada, America, Mexico, India, Nigeria, Portugal, Rumania and Scotland and is expanding. So presumably this is what qualifies us as valuable.

However, while glad for WordPress that their investment of expert services are beginning to pay off financially, as the advertisements so far have nothing to do with mysticism we shall keep an eye on them to make sure they don’t begin to pollute our subject with more inappropriate messages.

If they do we can always say goodbye to WordPress and find another web host.

‘Just thought this might be a good time to reassure you.

Best wishes,

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WHAT’S THIS WEB PAGE ALL ABOUT? A reminder.

You are at the wrong site if you are just seeking to be a better human being.

However, if you are called as a genuine Seeker then it is axiomatic, automatic, that you will become a better human being whether you read or Follow this web page or not.

Sincere familial blessings to you.

This is a BLOG for Seekers and those who have had the mystical experience of Reality (MER) and are humbly, joyfully dedicated to it – bringing their remaining personal humanity to it.

The Blog is also for scholars and scientists and those others who find themselves compelled to study the phenomena.

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IS THIS BLOG COMING TO ITS NATURAL END?

This Blog is coming near to its end I think. It seems to have fulfilled its primary purposes.

I started it because I wanted to clarify and understand my experiences of what I call, The Mystical Experience of Reality. I wanted to research and write about others’ experiences of the phenomenon.

It’s done all that and a lot more I hadn’t expected.

In fact, I had no idea that what I thought was my personal spiritual “condition” was so universal and had spiralled into such an important place in physics, theology, and philosophy.

The condition of MER, is now internationally, historically widespread, known, and studied in depth. So much so I’m almost at the stage of NOT putting the 100 or so posts from the Blog, all the comments and contact material, into an edited, coherent narrative like a book.

Oxford University entrusted its thousands of case histories on the phenomenon to Wales University. The archive there has grown to over 6,000 cases. They have sent me a questionnaire to add my experiences. There doesn’t seem any immediate need to do anything more. It’s not as if MER, or what Christians might call the Holy Spirit, can be evangelised. The experience is caught, not taught.

The physicists seem to have come to the conclusion their approaches by ‘experiment’ are never going to match the scientifically unreachable ‘experience’ of the mystics. It does, after all, seems to come and go like the wind, to and from where and for what certain purpose nobody knows …

I’m still getting some encouragement to produce the book, enlarged with added material, detailed commentary and references, but I remain unconvinced. As my wife says, “The Blog says it all for those who’re interested.”

I’ve also concluded the ego is now the only thing that would compel me to organise and write the Blog into a book. Thankfully, my ego seemed to have lost that part of ego years ago, when my MERs began.

And anyway, most importantly, the human race has not been abandoned. It is in good hands with or without such a book. All is well.

So I’ll not let the idea of a book bother me for now. I’ll just never say never …

KH. Nanaimo. February 2017.

HUMAN SPIRITUALITY OR REAL SPIRITUALITY?

Much of the uses of the word “spiritual” are not about the real spirit that permeates all existence, human or otherwise. The use of “spiritual” is only about the human spirit; emotion, imagination, hope, faith and belief, morality, ethics and mythomanic theology. All this is mind-stuff, superficial, ephemeral and not spiritual in the fullest sense.

This common use of the word implies the Spirit of Reality exists solely for mankind when it is far beyond any human to even imagine.

Spirituality is not about being better humans, though being a better human is a by-product of the Real thing, and is automatic, axiomatic.

Real spirituality is far above these false gods, even” God”. Real spirituality lies in the Experience of the Reality in which all things, even humans, live and have their being, as even some of the religions have repeated from their founders’ experience but without understanding.

True Seekers will steadfastly plough past the mind stuff of myth, dogma, falsification, magic and phenomena to the ever higher states to which true Seekers will always be drawn. All the rest, as scholars and even scientists are beginning to discover, is false.

Humans are being drawn to an understanding of the Reality mystics have already experienced.

In the meantime, the rest can pray (meditate and contemplate), read, and be patient. Writing is important too. It has been said that you cannot really know everything you’re capable of knowing until you write.

There are no failures.

WHAT’S IT ALL ABOUT?

A new Blog for those who have experienced Reality and are coming to terms with it, as well as for scholars and scientists and those others who are studying the phenomenon.

I am a mystic, a contemplative and a quietist. I had spontaneous experiences of what I call “Ultimate Reality” from the age of about 15 to 35. I have been absorbing the subject by osmosis ever since, as well as by prodigious reading on as many known aspects of the subject as I have been able to find.

Before that I was a hapless members of the Church of England. Afterwards, I was a deliberate Quaker for many years, then passing a year’s observances, was initiated into a Sufi Knowledge School.

Consequently, though I am of no religion I was accepted and dubbed a “Contemplative” after a tailored personal version of the long and rigorous Jesuit course on “The Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius Loyola” under a strict Father Director. Ever since, I have lived a life of conflict between this Calling and the duties and responsibilities of earning a living, marrying, and being a father in a demanding human environment, despite being alienated from humanity to some extent.

So what this Blog is about is reaching out to those who have been taken through the obscuring veils of normal human experience into the Reality of Existence, also to scholars, and those who are studying the phenomenon seriously.

I also hope this will reassure those who are keeping their heads down as suggested in Dr Marsha Sinetar’s book, Ordinary People as Mystics and Monks, that they are not alone, not psychotic, and might be precursors of what the human race is going to be.

So join in with your comments. Don’t use your real name if you’re diffident about coming out. Those who share the Experience will recognize your authenticity.

Keith Hancock

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What’s It All About?

Before that I was a hapless members of the Church of England. Afterwards, I was a deliberate Quaker for many years, then passing a year’s observances, was initiated into a Sufi Knowledge School.

So join in with your comments. Don’t use your real name if you’re diffident about coming out. Those who share the Experience will recognize your authenticity.

Keith Hancock

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