SPIRITUAL DOUBT.

By retired surgeon Anthony Good, a follower of mysticexperiences.net

Introduction: This is a remarkable first person document of lasting value to Mystics, Seekers, and those academics and scientists around the world who study our subject. It was an easy decision to ask for permission to re-propagate its contents here, for which permission was given immediately. – Keith.

Spirituality has, for me, always been immersed in doubt. I was brought up an atheist until I could think for myself when I moved onto the agnostic fence.

I could find no logical way to God, and even Soren Kierkegaard, the nineteenth century existential philosopher and theologian said that at some point there had to be a leap of faith, which I found hugely disappointing. How could faith be relied upon, when so many put their faith even in everyday things and are let down? I sensed a risk of falling into wish fulfilment.

The religious cultures I found so foreign, with constant referrals to faraway times, places, and ideas. Religious folk unfortunately are sometimes the worst exponents of the moral principles their creed advocate. (As I write there is a continuation of the unfolding sex abuse scandal in the English Roman Catholic Church.) How can the organised religions be so convinced of their God and yet reject each other’s; who is right, who am I to believe, where am I to put my faith?

Though many folks have a sense of spirituality outside the mainstream religions, it is poorly organised and without support outside the secret societies of the Masons and Rosicrucians who are often held in suspicion, and can attract hostility. So where does one turn?

Then there is the enormity of human suffering, from wars, failed political ideologies, disease, natural disasters I need not go on. How is all that accounted for in God and spirituality?

Nor was there evidence that God did not exist. Doubt looked both ways.

A Spiritual Opening

The existential crisis and spiritual opening were the game changer. There had been a couple of hints in past years but now this was like a slo-mo spiritual party cannon explosion of dreams, reveries, living mythologies, visualisations, spirit encounters, revelations, and far too many improbable coincidences. Before this curtain opening in my late forties, I would have considered its significance highly doubtful. It had to be experienced to be believed, then things will never be the same again.

I was pulled off the agnostic fence to at least follow this opening. There was no doubt about the experiences, but what they meant, or where it was taking me that was different. However, what appeared to be new truths were being laid before me and this was a kind of embodied living of what was happening rather than just some kind of thinking thing. It’s not willed, it breaks in, it is not lead by thinking, it leads.

The journey stripped away the old dependable truths, to the point where I was alone looking into darkness, a broken deconstructed character, and new truths doubted. I felt on the very edge of sanity.

Diminishing Old Doubts

Spirituality, had to be directly experienced, when it brings its truth value. Could I accept truth without having to understand it? The mystics say this experienced truth is higher than the trickster intellect. After all how many rational arguments and lines of logic have found their way into false conclusions?

I found my experiences were consistent with the mystics whether psychologists like Carl Jung and Roberto Assagioli, those from the main religions, and even the great artists, writers, and poets. They formulated an interconnected tapestry of consistent truths that revealed the push and pull of our existence.

Is it not unfair to expect the followers of the organised religions to be perfect, or even live up to their ideals, can anyone else do that? They are caught up in human failings like the rest of us even if also like us they cannot see, or even want to recognise them.  

I found faith in the authenticity of my experiences, without them I would have stayed on the fence, faithless, and doubtful as before.

My perspective on my life is of course human with an egoic orientation, but the true reference point for our lives may be the soul wanting to learn and grow into wholeness, holiness.  Oh, and how convenient to blame something else for our errors, an all supposedly loving God. Mankind has free will, and so how could God be omnipotent; man has to take responsibility, at least until man’s free will is perfectly aligned with God’s will? There is though enormous not knowing.

So if it’s true that we are looking at the work of effectively an infinite mind no wonder there is doubt and we need guides to find our way through. So many people seem to think they know the unknowable God. An egoic trap?

New Doubts on the Journey

Gradually, day by day experiences, contemplations, revelations, and more, have built up internal and external consistencies formulating what looked like the truth. Doubt has been diminished but waxed and waned.

For example, I recently had this dream; I was looking up at the sky with my dear wife and birds were flying over us when a big shaggy dog appeared jumping across the sky. I told her that when I saw Pegasus in the sky that is what it looked like, seemingly impossible but still able to walk on air. Then I saw the dog as a sheep, and then it broke up into birds. All along what I had thought was a dog running over the sky was an illusion of just birds coming together like the murmuration of starlings or swirling of a shoal of fish.

Is all experienced as spirituality merely a misinterpretation? Derren Brown the extraordinarily talented English illusionist when asked if he believed in God said he did not because he knew how the mind could deceive itself. The dream could have referred to sheep following dogma. Was I at risk of forming my dogma out of illusion and following that, sheep-like? Yes, of course. 

More recently I read the excellent book, ‘The Master and His Emissary’ by Iain McGilchrist (he is on YouTube). It is an up to date account of lateralised brain function, and how the relative predominance of left and right brain function has influenced history.

Spiritual experiences are held in the right brain which cannot directly vocalise; could we be tapping into this during the spiritual journey? Is this fascinating hidden part of the brain trying to create a seemingly legitimate false reality for our lives out of mostly lost memory cuttings?  I doubt that I have the imagination, sophistication, or creativity to construct what I have experienced spiritually, with its multi-layered complexity, intricacy, and revelatory push. But could spirituality be the dark side of the brain, and nothing more, or is our brain triggered into activity by something beyond it?

Could I be following a self-constructed elaborate fiction to live by, but then you don’t need to be in spirituality to do that! McGilchrist says that when people don’t believe in God, they find something less worthy to believe in.

Journeying with Doubt

Doubt is diminished by relating to events that go beyond our control or construction, such as synchronicities, predictive dreams, manifestations, and coincidences too improbable and frequent to dismiss easily, episodes of being rescued by unlikely circumstance or out of character individuals, and much more that cannot be explained by mere mental working and chance.

Maybe the most fundamental dissolver of doubt is a very solid and deeply felt sense of rightness about what is experienced (and not merely willed into creation by thought). Is this the faith that people describe; it’s not confected, wished, logicalised, but felt very deeply building up from experience and contemplation over years. It often, maybe usually, arrives without invitation, and is surprising.

Doubt, I have heard it said, is a necessary part of the spiritual journey, and will be with us to the end. The journey has eventually brought me to encounters that are more believable than not. There will always be a fear of self-delusion, but that diminishes with an honest appraisal of what I encounter. To wrestle with the truth and doubt and maybe God too is the surest way to find the right path on the journey to a purpose of our existence.

For now, I hope that in recognising my doubt, (and all its companions; faith, hope, wanting, fear, love, knowing and not knowing, and others) I can avoid being controlled and biased by it and relate to what comes in the next step with openness and balance as a seeker of truth.

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NOT BEING FAMOUS

QUESTION: Why aren’t you famous?

ANSWER: In my mind, I am! LOL!

But seriously, I started this blog and published the book, MYSTICAL EXPERIENCE OF REALITY as a means for me to understand my many spontaneous experiences of Reality every year from about the age of 15 to my mid 30’s.

Q: Has it worked?

A: Oh yes, and still is working. I was surprised to discover the phenomena is in fact very well known to the human race. Over the last thirty years it’s spread as a serious challenge to science through very active scholarly, scientific enquiries in universities world wide. I am now in correspondence with academics, scientists, Seekers and fellow mystics in New Zealand, Australia, UK, USA, Canada, Taiwan, and India, as well as papers on the subject and related enquiries from Academia,edu every day. I even found a hidden Sufi wisdom school with millions of followers around the world and eventually became an initiate. I now know what I am rather than who I am, and have that growing gift of the spirit, contentment – a much rarer human attribute than it should be – for which I am profoundly grateful.

Q: Could all that have been achieved by you anyway?

A: As natural human growth, you mean?

Q: Yes.

A: No! Where have you seen anything comparable? Contentment lasts, hapiness comes and goes if you’re lucky.

What similarities I have are only with mystics and mystics are usually clothed in what Sufi tradition calls, ‘The Cloak Of Invisibility’. This device is an ancient way of avoiding the crucifixion, burning, murder, torture, imprisonment and genocide committed against mystics in the past. For the time being, we live in better times but mystics realise they’re nothing to do with ordinary humans, anyway. There is nothing to be gained by studying the human condition for the real spirit of Reality rather than the mere human spirit. Even basic Reality has to be experienced to be known.

Q: So, fame is irrelevant?

A: Well the blog and the book do seem to be helpful to seekers and those interested in the subject. Amazon has now given the book five stars in North America, probably all round the world, after Europe first gave it five stars. So the blog and book are probably finding their own readers.

Q: You say you stopped sending the blog to social media shortly after it started.

A: Yes, I was getting a trickle of very odd followers and comments from social media mixed in with serious responses from non social media sources, so after correspondence with the present head of the Sufi school he mentioned social media “might not be helpful” – without me telling him it was already happening – I dropped all social media memberships immediately. I noticed the difference in quality of Comments and Likes from remaining Followers immediately.

Q: What happens if an enthusiastic reader in a position to get your writings before millions of people reviews your work glowingly?

A: It could be embarrassing. Emails are the best way for me to give thorough, thoughtful answers and avoid the merely curious, ego-fed or hubristic types. I avoid impromptu discussions in person for those reasons. I don’t do personal tours, appearances, or talks, either.

Q: No photographs of you, I see.

A: No. They’re a distraction too.

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CRITICISED FOR USING THE TERM, ‘MERE HUMANS’

QUESTION:  You have been criticised for using the term “mere humans” in your posts.  Does this indicate bias, bigotry, or prejudice against humans?

ANSWER:  Yes, I think it does. I suppose you want to know why?

Q:  Well yes.

A:  After my multiple annual experiences of Reality I was strangely constantly lead away from friendships. I was friendly, but not a friend. I did not call intimates my friend and was uncomfortable when people claimed me as a friend; sometimes their best friend.

Friendship was a commitment to which I had no loyalties. In fact I have shed ‘friends’ from my schooldays to the present all over the world. They just drop like autumn leaves as my life develops. There just seems no life in them. This includes family in particular.

When I came to realise this, I lived with it then eventually came to my present conclusion that I am existentially wedded to Reality to the exclusion of anything like human reality.

Q: Alienated?

A:  If that’s a technical word in the human, psychological sense then, yes, I am probably ‘alienated’.

Q:  So how did this affect your human life?

A:  Drastically, from a human point of view. Nothing in my schooling,  human ambition or career expectations seemed relevant. Now I know, they aren’t. 

Most of the people I come across are unconscious of the forces that rule their consciousness. Rowling, the author of the Harry Potter books, calls them ‘Muggles’, Gurus call them ‘sleepwalkers’, academics call them ‘unrealised’, ‘unauthenticated’. Some of my closest acquaintances are ‘second hand’, rely on society, tv and magazines, religions, authorities, for their values.

My closest acquaintances might be all those things but in my eyes have the redeemable quality of being thinkers. They have minds that are developed somewhat. They use them with openess to any possibilities, have an active even if weakly active, developing consciousness.

Q: One of your followers asked you if you find it difficult to deal with people as a mystic. 

A:  Yes. I remember babbling a forgettable reply to this person because I’m better at writing my thoughts than voicing them spontaneously. Fortunately I was rescued at about 40 years of age with small talk. 

Small talk was a real blessing because before that I was a sweating, total wreck at meeting people at the general conversational level of religion, politics, relationships, marriage, babies, children, gossip, etc.; all the general inconsequentia of human life, much of which, probably all of which, is artificial. 

Until then I totally avoided parties, ceremonies, formal and private social gatherings, and still do to some extent. Breakfasts, lunches or dinners of no more than eight people are alright though. I can manage those. After my sudden gift of the ability to small talk however I now have no problems if caught out having to consort with strangers occasionally.

So when I refer to “mere humans”, I refer to the presently primitive but developing condition of the human race as it is carefully cultivated by Reality to its destiny. The present dichotomy between humans and Reality is presumably closing in good order, in Reality’s time, not ours. All Is Well.

Q: Why do we have mystics then? Are they messengers, teachers?

A:  Generally I have no idea. But my personal mystic experiences were quite clear – to leave humans alone, leave everything to Reality. Study Reality by all means but don’t waste time on mythomania, the artificiality of the human mind running in default … or, as the Quakers might say: Let Go And Let God. 

Probably this is why I was so determinedly lead away from “friendships”, to keep me focused on my true destiny, to avoid the mystic trap of evangelising, prosyletising my version ofvthe universal phenomena of the mystic experience, avoid starting a religion or social cause, a clay footed ideology? Perhaps the sudden gift of small talk was a helpful compensatory gesture?

So to answer your question, Why Mystics?, it could well be that mystics are being groomed at a different level to fulfill their destiny after human death.

Q:  Is God Reality?

A :  No. Reality is much bigger. Though Reality does still include “mere humans” Reality is not a human god.

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QUESTION: How Do You Know Your Mystical Experiences Of Reality Are True?

QUESTION: How do you know your mystical experiences of Reality are true?

ANSWER: Because of the ineffable but undeniable, implacable, benign power that revealed my true existence as an eternal non human being since the beginning of all things, Its revelation of my inclusion of belonging then, now and forever. It was literally stunning to feel so accepted, loved, freed. This was my destiny, my reality. I was and am always Reality and Reality was and is always me.

I never wondered about any of this. I had no idea of the existence of such an experience. It was entirely unthought of, beyond anything I had ever experienced, or ever expected anyone to experience, totally spontanious, assuring.

Q: How could you live as a human after that!

A: With lasting difficulty. I kept these experiences to myself for 60 years. I had them several times a year from about 15 years of age into my 30’s.

Q: You never wanted to shout them from the housetops as the saying goes?

A: Never.

Q: Why not?

A: I never understood them.

Q: So what made you ‘come out’ when you did.

A: I came across a book of yoga that seemed to hint at my experiences. I began to wonder if the phenomena might be known after all. The book, by Paul Brunton, didn’t make me feel any urge to take it further though.

Some time later, in my fifties I came across an older couple at a house of a group of friends who spoke with familiarity about what I thought were my exclusive experiences. I was astounded.

The couple subsequently introduced me to what has been called a little known school of Sufism that teaches millions of its world wide adherents what only I thought I knew – my experiences.

That eventually lead to my “coming out” to the then Master of the School. Later, after preparation, I was finally initiated.

The School impressed me by inviting its adherents to stay in its growing new town in India for free for three months every year in modern western style accommodation in the cool season. We were never asked for money, even told not to send postage for the Master’s replies to any letters he encouraged us to write to him about our progress. He said, “adequate funds are provided.”

It was here I first learned about mystics. Much later, from outside the School, I came across the Buddhist reference to pratyeka buddhas, which leads me to believe that’s what I am, but not a buddha. A pratyeka buddha has personal experiences of Reality like me, and does not teach, preach, evangelise or prosyletise from these experiences either.

Q: Quite a journey. Why are you here do you think?

A: I think mystics like me could be part of some purpose of developing consciousness. I’m not sure yet.

Q: Human consciousness?

A: No, not human consciousness! Ultimate consciousness, of which human consciousness could be a part on some level.

Q: You’re not curious?

A: No, I’m not curious. I’m content. I’m in good hands. All Is Well.

Q: Can other ordinary humans have these mystical experiences?

A: If they “hunger and thirst” for Reality as the Christian bible suggests, then they are already called. I was just one of those that didn’t hunger and thirst, but “That which you seek seeks you” the Sufi Master told us. People who do hunger and thirst are in good hands too. “Seek and ye shall find”, also from the Christian bible, is another truism that rings as authentic to me. Again I didn’t seek, but once found, I knew Reality.

As I say, whatever your way, All Is Well. “There are no failures” I’m told.

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I WAS THAT. I DO NOT INTEND TO RETURN By Anthony Garner, zenothestoic.com

 

Last night was a night of my soul, but not a dark one.

I am aware where true happiness lies and nowhere was that more evident than in the middle of a starlit, cool summer night dreaming in my garden.

I had commented to a friend during the day that my version of life was best summed up by Mathew 6:25-34 in sharp contradistinction to a summary I had read of a book called “Moonshots: Creating a World of Abundance”.

According to that book, it seems that a better world requires that I get up at 4 am every morning, become an “entrepreneur” and run something called a “for profit”.

Instead I lay in the dark and gave thanks that I was as far removed from such a dystopian nightmare as it is possible to get.

It had been a day of intense heat, such as I am not used to and have come to dread. 33% in the shade – nothing for Madrid or Texas no doubt, but enough to induce in me a sense of panic and claustrophobia. Enough to send me off to the beach and take a very unaccustomed John the Baptist.

By evening a coolness had spread, and the middle of the night found me sleeping in the garden. Dozing perhaps, dreaming certainly, meditating.

A sense of calm and gnosis crept over me. I heard a gentle murmuring all around me; I heard night sounds of animals I might have recognized by day, but whose voices were until then a mysterious closed book to me.

The over riding emotion was oneness. I wondered at one stage whether my mind was disintegrating along with my no longer young body. Perhaps my end was coming or was it my beginning? Regardless, it was neither harrowing nor joyous, just intensely peaceful. An overwhelming acceptance of what is. A strong grasp of the infinity all around me and the certain knowledge that all was somehow well, dissolved as I felt in the universal.

More properly speaking I was at the foothills of disintegration but such absorption was felt to be a progress, and achievement of some sort and not an ending.

Above all I was where I should be, where I belonged. I was nature, I was that vastness above. I was that haunting animal cry, I was the coolness of the night and its starry blackness.

There is yin and there is yang, it is said. There is no beauty without ugliness, no goodness without sin. Is that true I wonder? And if so can the whole come to be seen as beautiful anyway?

I think maybe the latter. Perhaps it is a question of acceptance, of letting go. And yet if you are yin I do not think you can survive in a world of yang. Not unless you have managed to transcend the physical and become pure spirit.

Where once I was prepared to try out the world portrayed in that book, to imagine that “for profit” and “entrepreneurship” was the way to go, that was all yang to my yin.

Even as a small child, at heart I realized my yingness but for so much of my life pretended I was yang. Instead of “for profit” my reality was the lilly. Instead of entrepreneurship, my soul was in truth a bird which did not wish to gather in barns. I did not wish to sew nor to reap.

Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin.

And thus in the middle of last night, in the cool and under the canopy of the stars I felt myself; as I am. I looked to the night sky and felt I am that. I heard the night owl cry and that too was me. The quiet susurration of distant waves, the gentle rustle of leaves and branches in a cool night wind. That too was me; I was that.

Do I wax too poetical, do I lose my meaning in a sea of fantasy. No, I think not. I was a part of reality last night and content to exist or not. If there was yin mixed in with yang, I was not seeing it. Or was I seeing a bigger picture altogether – the glory of yin and yang combined in an unblemished whole. I was bathed in a glorious unity and nothing seemed to matter. I did not seem to be body or earthbound, transcendence seemed somehow to have happened.

I do not intend to return.

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CORRECTION!

Some time ago I pondered aloud in these pages about whether the natural time had come to stop writing the Blog after several  hundred posts. Though persuaded otherwise I was inclined to say yes, stop.

But now with a feeling of finality from publishing a book, I recently put the same question to Reality and as usual awaited a reply. Just as usual, the reply was swift and silent, enveloping me with the reminder my real reason for starting the Blog was the need to steep myself continuously in the revelations I had been given, not by retreating from daily distractions by joining ashrams, monasteries or hermitages that disqualified themselves by their idealogical, anthropological shallowness.

Also, sadly, having been initiated into a wisdom school for some time (where I learned that my experiences of Ultimate Reality did not signify dementia but a unique, what humans call, high ‘spiritual’ calling), I have now come to the realisation there is no further sustenance in that School’s comparatively limited experiences either.

So I shrugged (as it were) and got on with the Blog and was much encouraged by the response until I realised most of the Followers were ‘Muggles’ from social media like LinkedIn, Facebook and suchlike, eager to express their egos and unrealisations – who the older eastern Teachers unkindly dismissed as “Sleepwalkers”.

Coincidentally to my realising this, the Master of my School had advised me to avoid social media as spiritually unproductive. So I decided it was time to severe all such connections.

I like to think the remaining and new Followers of this Blog are what marketing experts would call, ‘qualified’, what I think the Master might agree are in their diverse ways, Seekers or even Experiencers like me. (Such fellow Experiencers quietly seek refuge, solace, from the loneliness of being marooned in humanity).

So I shall keep the Blog going as a personal practice, keeping it as pure as I can for those who are lead to it, as well as for myself, for my need to keep myself continually soaked in Reality without being diverted by everyday taboos, myths and delusions that ravage humanity so …  Reality is enough.

All Is Well.

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DISCERNMENT 

Explaining A Mystic.

Me:  Thank you for your introduction to the current affairs essayist. I’m not much interested in worldy affairs. There is much more afoot than being merely human.

Questioner: GONADS! You are SUPER interested in what Trump’s doing, and Boris too… or at least that’s the picture you paint. And the whole Covid melodrama! And what about your sport of choice: sailing!

Me: Confusing I know, but my interest in human affairs is very shallow because with 99% of the people who do manage to get into my life or be in it uninvited, I’ve got used to using such expected conversations of the day to make myself invisible. I have no defining passion for humans. There is nothing of Real value to study in human existence for people like me.

This gift of discernment can upset former friends because I’m reclusive, have drifted out of their lives. I find them irritatingly, wearily superfluous. I increasingly see this discernment focusing me powerfully so as to protect my first hand experiences of a Reality far beyond the human condition.

There are very few people near to me now compared to the hundred or so deliberately pruned out of my existence.

Current human affairs are more and more of a curiosity to me, an entertainment, a shallow archeological peculiarity, a recreation, a time consuming hobby easily discarded.

You’re practically the only one left to experience my small talk when challenged, something I was only gifted with suddenly in my forties – presumbably to make my life with humans less miserable.

This small talk ability worked then but has become much less needed. So resist stirring it up. LOL.

Questioner: That’s a great explanation. I get it.

The apparent contradiction was confusing before. That clears it up.

Thank you.

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SPONTANEOUS AWAKENING EXPERIENCES: BEYOND RELIGION AND SPIRITUAL PRACTICE

By: Steve Taylor, M. Sc., PGCE Leeds, United Kingdom

This academic paper appears to describe the experience of my spontaneous, unrelated religious or spiritual experiences of what I call MER, (Mystical Experience of Reality) every year for over 15 years.

I thought you might be intrigued by this investigation into and conclusion about the phenomenon. The abstract of the paper follows. The full paper is available in pdf., free of charge, from Academia.edu as well as on the author’s website.

ABSTRACT

“‘Awakening experiences’ have been misunderstood to some degree by their long association with religious and spiritual traditions and practices. The research reported here –161 reports of awakening experiences –suggests that most of them occurred outside the context of spiritual or religious traditions. Neither were they induced by spiritual practices such as meditation or prayer. Most occurred ‘spontaneously.'”

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March 2020

120 ACADEMIC PAPERS AROUND THE WORLD HAVE MENTIONED ‘MYSTIC EXPERIENCES OF REALITY’ SO FAR SINCE PUBLICATION

Can you help?

Every day Academia.edu send me notification of up to seven mentions a day of my name being cited in academic papers by universities around the world since ‘Mystic Experiences of Reality’ was published in December.

Academia.net is a website claiming membership of over 15,000 universities, including Oxford, Berkeley, New York University, MIT.

They claim over 15,000 scholarly papers and books are submitted to their site every day and urge me to “Track your growing reputation,

see what academics are saying about you.”

They also claim  over 70 million followers.

But when I enquire about details of the citations using my name the only reply I get is a standardised automatic reply that I can find the answer by paying a membership fee of over $112 a year. I see some scholars  have criticised this marketing device. Apparently Academia.net used to sell reviews of scholarly works too.

In the meantime I am also getting almost daily notifications from them of recently published scholarly papers and books on my interest  – mysticism, philosophy, metaphysics, psychology, (but so far none on physics’ dynamic contribution to the subject). I have downloaded some of these papers but on reading have deleted them as being the usual academic/scholarly cannibalisation of ancient and modern skirmishes on the mystery of the mystic phenomenon, nothing that takes the subject forward significantly. None of the scholars seem to have had the experience of MER.

My blog, on the other hand, mysticexperiences.net, seems to be uniquely outstanding for giving a significantly new mystic message that has nothing to do with the collective human condition. Is this a new development in the historic phenomenon of the mystic experience?

So what I’m asking you is if you know anything about the legitimacy of Academia.edu? Is it worth engaging? Thank you.

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DOES REALITY DEMAND WORSHIP?

Q. In your mystical experiences of Reality, (MER), did Reality demand worship, service, duties, observances or rituals?

No. The idea that anyone who has the genuine mystical experience of Reality feels “called” as if to a religion with all a religion’s human trappings, with the implication you have any kind of choice to serve or not is ludicrous. When Reality calls the transition is unobservable, in my experience. Nothing about you is ever just you again, to be or do what you like. The experience is a transition. There is no return to a place from where you were once “called”. To say otherwise is just human hubris, mythomania.

Reality does not ask for anything, not even to be worshiped or “followed”. Reality just gives. When Reality manifests It leaves no instructions. It seems to me the experiences work on you unheeded. It certainly takes you out of the human experience to the extent that attempts at evangelisation, proselisation of MER are oxymoronic. MER does not come to make us better human beings. It does its own unknown work on humans without human involvement.

Q. This is nowhere near the historical mystical experience, is it?

No. Historically, the mystic experience has been smothered by humanness. Paradise Lost you could say. Perhaps we are now at a new development in evolution, a turning point?

Q. If true, these are very new Revelations. Aren’t there very serious implications for the way the human race is conducting itself – in law, justice, governance, economics, philosophies, religions, morality and ethics for example?

In view of this perhaps new mystic revelation of a Reality beyond most human comprehension, it seems to me the most serious implication for humans is the realisation of the supreme cosmic importance above all else of the individual as opposed to the collective. All real cosmic values lie in the individual.

Q. What was your immediate reaction to the experiences?

When I had my first experiences of MER I actually wondered aloud, “What now?” The answer was always, (in translation!), “Nothing, everything is taken care of – go, enjoy your life”. I remember protesting, “but I have no propensity for enjoyment”. I never got a reply to that.

Q. There was no demand for service to Reality?

No.

Q. Do you have a propensity for enjoyment?

Not ordinarily. I’ve always been odd man out in most human “enjoyments”. I have always abhorred groups, parties, “celebrations”, communalism, politics, ideologies (more hubris), or pagan rituals smothered by consumerism. I’ve spent a lot of energy disguising these traits. However, I am content with solitariness, thinking and writing about Reality, riding, solo sailing, hanging out with friends as a kind of brain washing.

Travel to and in 24 countries has been a burden in a busy life as I’m not a traveller when business doesn’t call, nor a tourist, hiker or adventurer. I don’t go on tours or take photographs. Monuments and remarkable edifices, churches and temples remain unvisited, like the Taj Mahal, Table Mountain or the Eiffel Tower. I just can’t take them seriously.

Q. So your life is not given in service to Reality?

Not that I’m aware of, no. But I am completely taken in body, mind, spirit and strength. It is practically all I am. The human part of life is a constant inconsequential harassment. In many ways my “hunger and thirst” has intensified as a result of my MERs, made me impatient with life, which fortunately is short and terminal … (laughs loudly, shakes his head, wipes his eyes and smiles deeply). I just hope it’s not all been some cosmic joke …

Q. So what is MER then?

It’s like a seed planted only in some humans for the time being, bringing oneness with a Reality that includes everything known and unknown, with a sense of belonging to everything, experience of a love and joyousness unknown to those who haven’t yet experienced Reality. Very intense. Followed by a lifetime’s processing. Paradise Regaining?

Q. Are you implying everyone will experience MER eventually?

Yes, my intuition is everything that exists will experience MER as a process of evolution to something as yet only experienced by the mystics.

Q. Will our space explorers find Reality?

No. Astronauts are going in the wrong direction – into matter, not out of it …

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December 2019

ADVICE TO ONE OF THIS BLOG’S FOLLOWERS

I’m sorry if I was cryptic. It was against all my instincts to say anything at all (check out the description of a “silent Buddha” in the Blog).

The cryptic formula I used (as explained in the Blog somewhere) is designed to guide the recipient to their own conclusions rather than have it all spelled out as mere hearsay. So I’m pleased you’re going to persist in untangling my words until you get to the hoped for personal epiphanic arrangement …

(This exercise is profoundly more bountiful than any crossword or version of sudoku, especially for you as the hungry and thirsting Seeker I believe you to be).

As a supposed pratyeka buddha I was diffident about interfering but did so because it seems to me you are on the very edge of Realisation, and indeed, very often experience Its fringes without recognising It. This conflict ruins your inner content.

The tradition is that we do not evoke our “voice”, this incessant passion for Reality, our vocation, with all our heart and soul and strength, Reality chooses us. It will never leave us, It is now us.

So, you ask, what do I do? This is a very typical egoistic human response – to which Reality’s reply is: Nothing.

If you are truly called, have total integrity and sincerity, are a real seeker, then everything will be done for you. Reality takes over. From my own experience I can agree with the taught tradition that you will change – friends, jobs, clothes, eating habits, reading, travel, lust, anger, greed, all personal, cultural and institutional attachments and lastly, and with difficulty, ego. (I see some of these are already working on you quite vehemently!).

I did not find my processing “in the mills of God which grind slowly but infinitely finely” as I’ve heard it called, easy, though looking back I can see how silently effortless, sometimes unnoticed and unremarked the changes were in my life. I am much blessed.

So in your case I would say “simplicity” and “action”, as well as its coconmitant “non action”, are now seeded in you …

What now? In the immediate meantime it helps to go into the silence and stay there as long as you can whenever you can and let the world go by. This facility develops with repetition. It’s a very calming place to be while Reality nurtures you into full fruition. All is well.

I hope this is more helpful in rescuing you from the world. I’m very diffident about interfering in something so personal and hope I’m right in trying.

My very best wishes,

Keith.

TRUE ENLIGHTENMENT?

 

Q. I have a question that worries me.

A. Yes?

Q. You say ordinary study and lifestyle, different methods of achieving transcendence, reading, don’t necessarily mean you will experience the mystical experience of Reality, (MER), and that MER is the only true enlightenment?

A. Yes. True enlightenment is not human, not biological, not induced by mind or brain, It is outside human experience, directed to specific humans who apparently have no obvious qualifications to receive It.

Q. People like you?

A. Yes, people somewhat like me in their ignorance of such matters.

Q. How did this come to you then?

A. From my spontaneous, annual, multiple MERs from the age of late 14 years to 35 years of age.

Q. Spontaneously, not from any religious influence, studies, practices, methods, religions, paths?

A. Yes, only spontaneously.

Q. But what about those very educated people, professionally and academically qualified people, gurus, yogis, even scientists, who express or seem to know what you write about and write papers and books, have disciples and followers, even give courses and lectures?

A. There is a difference between intellectually realised people and experientially realised people, mystics. The better part, the fuller experience, the grace if you like, is spontaneous. MER is generally accepted in the ancient and modern mystical traditions, so far as I know, as “caught, not taught”. Experience of MER is the real beginning of knowledge and ultimate enlightenment

Q. You’re saying you can’t induce It or, presumably even influence It?

A. Yes, I am. MER is pathless.

Q. So those who you say have “a hunger and thirst” for MER can’t do anything about it?

A. No. The very fact they hunger and thirst for MER means It is already present and working in them. You may not believe in Reality but Reality believes in you. What do you think put that hunger and thirst there in the first place? It was Reality. And Reality is doing something about it. As the Christian bible says, BE STILL, AND KNOW REALITY, AND KNOW THAT REALITY IS ALL. (With apologies to King James).

Q. Be still. That’s it?

A. Yes, It’s everything. Reality is permanent. All else passes. Give it a try. You’ll see, nothing will ever be the same again … It gets easier and easier because, as you’ll discover for yourself : “That which you seek seeks you …”.

Q. Finally, what do you really think MER is all about?

A. I think MER is a process of awakening to Reality. Everything that exists will go through MER eventually, including humans.

“All Is Well”.

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December 2019

YOU DON’T HAVE ANY “PROBLEMS”

 

QUESTION: You say you’re not a teacher, a guru etc. You say you’re not here to pass on your experiences of Reality. So what do your experiences mean?

ANSWER: I am growingly persuaded my experiences are for my benefit, so are tailored accordingly just for me. I don’t know why.

They are not experiences with a general meaning applicable to everyone, though they do have basic physical similarities with other historical experiences of Reality.

I feel my experiences are still developing me beyond just being a present day human.

Q: So your experiences have no message for humanity?

A: Not directly from me, no. My example might help, but that would be a process that’s not in my hands.

Q: Is that why you don’t teach, invite pupils, get into social internet sites, ask for money?

A: Yes. I’m directed and developed by my mystical experiences of Reality every moment of my life. There are more important things afoot for me than being merely human. For me, extraneous human clutter is dealt with by the fruits of discernment and avoidance.

I have the code word humans gave me when I was born – my human name. But now I wear the masks my experiences have given me. They help me endure the human experience.

Q: Presumably you have none of the natural human problems?

A: There’s nothing usual about human problems.

All human “problems” are man made, creations of the mind. The mind, like the “problems” it creates, dies on death. (Is everything outside Reality in entropy?).

Even if your troubles seem to come from another person or exterior circumstances, it is you that has allowed yourself into that situation. You are oblivious to the consequences you have allowed your mind to sleepwalk you into …

Your mind is in default most of the time, just going along with other defaulting minds without ever thinking for yourself – just going with the human herd. Do you have any real values, do you need what values you think you have or have you just accepted what stuck as you slept through a life without examination?

The mind works autonomously as a means of evolution. But uncontrolled, running mostly on default, it’s an impediment to human development. It denies humans the real contentment that MER (The Mystical Experience of Reality) indicates is every human’s true inheritance. Contentment is snatched away by minds running on default.

In Reality there are no problems. There’s no need for them this side of Reality either.

Q: What’s the answer?

A: I can only suggest just being still, getting down to examining the very roots of the “problems” you’ve allowed yourself to get into. This will need persistence, change.

Just persist. The practice becomes a habit, a powerful, transcending habit.

There are no “troubles” in Reality or real ones out of Reality, none whatsoever …

All your lifetime’s un-examined accretions of lust, anger, greed, all your personal, family, social relationships, ideological attachments, attitudes, and finally, ego are nothing to do with the real you buried under them. As you progress they will peel off as if you never had them. The real you will emerge in full bloom.

If you’re called to be a Seeker the process will soon grip you and lead you on. It’s an easier process for you. You were born for it.

However, all humans can find themselves, know themselves and be content this side of Reality.

Reality seeks you as much as you seek Reality. Reality is the real reason for being.

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MYSTICAL EXPERIENCES OF REALITY: VOLUNTARY OR NOT?

 

Long-time follower of this Blog, Ron Krumpos, starts the debate.

Ron has degrees in philosophy from Northwestern University, Lucknow University and the University of Wisconsin-Madison.

His book, The Greatest Achievement In Life, is a comprehensive account of mysticism as experienced today. Ron interviewed 10 mystics from around the world to write it. It is a free reprintable pdf book with more than 70,000 downloads so far.

Ron: Keith, you said about MER, “It’s caught, not taught.” In religious terms what is ‘caught’ is grace. Divine grace is spiritual assistance not specifically earned by its recipient. Most mystics believe that divine grace is offered at all times

Keith: Grace is “A state of sanctification by God” according to Word Web dictionary. But that’s just an historically religious statement that gives the words “sanctification” and “God” old cultural meanings that have nothing to do with my experiences of Reality every year from the age of about 14 years to my late thirties.

Is there any empirical or experiential evidence that the experience is offered at all times? It’s not an option.

If MER (Mystical Experience of Reality) is an evolutionary factor could this suggest we will all become this Ultimate Reality finally anyway, grace or no grace? (Is that what the biblical Jesus meant when he said, I and my Father (God) are one?).

Ron: … in all places and to all beings, the sentiments, thoughts and actions of the ego self, and individual isolation, block its entry.

Keith:  “… sentiments, thoughts and actions of the ego self, and individual isolation, block its entry” is unlikely if my experience is to be trusted.

The phenomena is spontaneous and does not need or accept invitations or permissions. The idea that anything could “block its entry” seems self contrary.

I certainly didn’t want to block my special experiences, nor could I have resisted such an engulfment even if I’d known how … The ineffable joy, oneness with all things then, now and forever, the knowledge, understanding, and humility, all given without any taking is truly ineffable. I was my true self. I tried desperately, bitterly to resist being gently deposited back into my humanity when each episode ended. There was never any question of choice in any of it.

Ron: “God’s grace is the beginning, middle and the end. When you pray for God’s grace, you are like someone standing neck deep in water and yet crying for water.” Ramana Maharshi.

Keith: The implication of this quote seems to be that everyone can experience the phenomenon of their own volition if they just pay attention. This is not my personal experience. My experiences were spontaneous, as I’ve said.

Ron: “God continually showers the fullness of his grace on every being in the universe, but we consent to receive it to a greater or lesser extent.” Simone Weil.

Keith: By the same logic a tulip could consent to rain or refuse it. It seems unlikely MER has ever been or could be left in the care of humans any more than to plants.

The hard question here is, can we do anything personally about emerging into what the mystics tell us we truly are?

On the evidence of the biblical Jesus’s attempts to evangelise the mystical experience of Reality, and other such failed attempts of historical note, plus my own anecdotal witness, I’d have to say No.

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