REALITY MANIPULATIBLE?

“The subconscious mind motivates almost all actions, behaviors, thoughts, emotions, and the choices that you think you are making in your lives — it is the key to transformation.” Richard Haight, richardhaight.net

Is Richard suggesting it’s the subconscious mind that produces what I call the mystical experience of Reality (MER), that people can transform themselves into being better human beings?

The existence of an independent ‘sub conscious’ mind is an unproven human suggestion.

All we can be sure of is that the brain works on an as yet not fully understood practical complex of hydraulic, hydrodynamic, electric, synaptic and chemical levels. But little else can be assumed with any certainty. All we understand about the brain is that it services and maintains the body’s functions. So far as we know, that’s it; nothing spiritual available for human manipulation that has yet been discerned about the brain.

I certainly never got the impression I had anything I could do about my MERs. I was helpless and incredibly joyous about them; humbly so. They were completely spontanious and inexplicable. So much so I have a strong instinct the stewardship of existence has deliberately excluded any interference by our comparatively new human race. MER is caught, not taught. Reality Rules.

As my multiple experiences of MER attested, these experiences are not meant to ‘improve’ humans but to aid the process of advancing us beyond mere human existence.

All Is Well.

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WHY DO YOU CALL YOURSELF A MYSTIC?

Question: You say openly you are a mystic but mystics have a reputation for being reluctant to identify themselves publicly.

Answer: Yes I do, and I have two main reasons for this.

First of all I wasn’t going to use my name when I published this blog, even when I eventually published my book. That is because I still believe the message is more important than the messenger. But I was advised my mystic experiences wouldn’t be taken seriously if I didn’t identify myself as a real person. So I gave in.

Q: How important are your mystical experiences?

A: I have no idea. For over half a century of my life, since my experiences started, the idea of promoting them never occurred to me. I also thought people would think I was mad. Even when inner promptings started to urge me to go public after all that time, I resisted. There was no way I felt I could face the public reaction or treatment historically meted out to mystics.

Q: So what changed your mind?

A: These unbidden and largely resisted inner promptings, persisted until the idea of a Blog came. After that, despite misgivings, I gave in and started the blog. Then I had promptings to publish the book. Having a background as a journalist and editor then a senior communications executive and consultant seemed to fit. The call to write a blog finally appealed to my abilities as obvious, blessed answers to the by then increasingly persistent promptings. So here we are.

Now I get specific messages giving me subjects for blog posts. I seem to react as a recording scribe.

As such I do my best to represent my experiences and their personally directed teachings, if that’s what they are. I come at them with purposeful integrity, careful effort, to achieve what purity of communication I can. It’s a profoundly spiritual exercise that was thrust on me. I find it humbling.

Q: How do the words you write arrive?

A: Ghost-like in their sudden emergence! I have very little idea what they’re going to be about. I have no idea of what I record even existing in me. The words just flow. (Despite constant editing, all the errors are mine).

Secondly, I didn’t tell anyone about my experiences or about being a mystic for over 60 years, not family, friends or colleagues, because I didn’t even know I was a mystic.

But now I do know so deliberately identify myself as such because I’m increasingly alienated from the human race as a consequence of my experiences taking me further into Reality. I therefore find most human life, human preoccupations and general states of consciousness minimal, artificial, tedious even. This helps reduce people’s expectations of me. I’m not the same as them and can’t accept the same basics of existence as they do.

People generally take themselves and human life with its myriad mythomanic attachments for granted. I can’t.

(I always thought it odd when a guru prefaced his public appearances with the plea to ask him only spiritual questions, not religious, ideological, social, or political ones. Now I understand why he said that).

Q: Is this detachment?

A: Yes.

Q: How’s that working?

A: Magnificently! Unattachment is a deeply intensive gift that enables you to know Reality. I’m much affected by the deeper revelations unattachment brings.

All Is Well.

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INTUITION THE INNATE COMMON “LANGUAGE” OF REALITY?

I’m told mystics are intuitive. As a mystic, I haven’t noticed. But maybe I’m not identifying the experiences I have as being ‘intuitive’. My mystical experiences have lead me to understanding some things effortlessly, easily, naturally, accurately and truly. Is that intuition? It never occurred to me everyone doesn’t have it.

But sometimes when I read my posts, although I can be most impressed even though I almost can’t believe I wrote them, I am profoundly humbled, uncontrollably, beyond my humanity.

My posts are received from these direct experiences of Reality. They are conveyed to me innately, not by any human language except in one instance when it was revealed “All Is Well”; as I have described elsewhere in this Blog.

Perhaps others do have this intuition but don’t pay attention or don’t trust it or themselves?

Even cursory research shows there is widespread, modern and historical acceptance of the MER experience. It’s real.

There are lots of words/phrases for it: hunches, inference, instinct, cognition, gnosis, apprehension, insight, inspiration, sixth sense, impression, suspicion, direct knowledge, common sense, insights, opinions, enlightenment, transcendence, altered state …

(Gnosis springs out to me from that tentative list. In its pure, historical meaning it stands for the experience of the union/knot with ultimate existence. It implies intuitive knowledge of spiritual truths. According to Wikipedia “it signifies a knowledge or insight into humanity’s real nature as divine, leading to the deliverance of the divine spark within humanity from the constraints of earthly existence.”(The word gnostic exists in the Christian bible. It is also self used by a modern cult ‘religion’ purportedly made up of gnostic humans. I avoided such ‘gnostics’ after they insisted there are different forms of the experience such as Jewish gnosticism, Catholic, Anglican gnosticism, etc. Such distintions don’t exist in Reality. Their leader wanted to make a worshipping religion of gnosticism with ceremonies, prayers, priests and robes – Reality reduced to human mythomania).

More seriously, some psychologists say intuition is the brain rapidly sorting out hunches generated by the unconscious mind …

My intuition is they are wrong if they assume the brain creates intuition. I intuit it doesn’t!

I think intuition could be the way Reality communicates throughout all existence. As mystics know, in Reality, in which all things are perfect and everything is at peace wih itself, there are no names or languages. Is this another indication intuition is in fact the transmitting language of Reality?

Is this why the historical admonition to “Know Thyself”, or the urgings of the wise to listen to our “still, small inner voice”, to recognise our ‘intuition’, (that we see in dogs, horses, cows, etc.), why monasteries insist on evidence of your ‘vocation’, ie: ‘voice’, before becoming a monk, why gurus tell us to meditate?

Are mystics the only ones currently developed enough to use intuition as part of their daily lives?

As I have written here before, I think intuition is a human word describing how mystics are conscious of widely experienced things humans also see but don’t notice, that intuition is “an ineffable conscious experience, as distinct from any physical or computational process*”. Intuition seems as common to humans as their blindness to it.

Nevertheless, is intuition the human ‘eureka’ principle, those sudden, logically and intellectually unsupported sudden scientific discoveries we hear so much about?

Is intuition just Reality at work, despite most humans being biased against anything that is not widely experienced or accepted by their human cultures – ie: collective cultural blindness?

Will intuition generally develop eventually through basic human intelligence to full blown attributes of intuitive observation, conclusion, action and communication? Will human languages die? Is this intuitive process part of the evolutionary process?

I intuit the brain is just a receiver when it comes to intuiting knowledge. Reality uses the brain to receive and transmit ‘intuitions’, to guard, guide and direct us personally, directly.

Why do some use this intuition and others don’t? Perhaps some aren’t ‘wired’ enough for it yet, or just not aware of its existence, or of their personal ability to try listening to it? The human race is still in evolutionary development so maybe the answers to who has what, and who still doesn’t, lies in the future somewhere?

Is intuition the human word to describe the ineffable experience of MER? Mystics would say partly, yes, because any experience, any consciousness, particularly the experience of the Mystic Experience of Reality, is the beginning of all wisdom.

For me, my experiences of Reality are far more believable, profoundly impelling beyond question, than anything merely human.

Therefore, so far as my experiences are concerned the answer to the question, Is intuition the innate, common “language” of communication in Ultimate Reality? is, most likely, YES!

*Wordweb dictionary for ‘ineffability’.

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FULLY DEVELOPED MYSTICS KNOW.

Question: You say that in Reality where all things are perfect there are no names. Why is this? What do you mean?

Answer: In Reality everything will be known through the experience of being part of Reality. You are as much Reality as Reality is you. Everything is Reality. There is no need for explanation or discussion in that realised state.

In Hinduism the experience is, roughly translated, in the phase of enlightment as, ‘Reality is and I am that’.

Human words in any human culture are not real, not the actual experience. A word is only a representation, a metaphor for what it is trying to describe somewhat innacurately. Experience is the only accurate understanding of anything, human or divine.

Names, descriptions, for instance are inaccurate metaphors for the real thing.

That’s why human language can be such a babble of so many different meanings to so many different people.

So when it comes to Reality, where all things are known by experience, there is no babble, no need for words. In Reality such things as human doubt or scepticism, for instance are unknown.

In Reality you personally are known to depths of meaning beyond any human experience or understanding outside the actual mystical experience of Reality, (MER).

This is why mystics have no need for faith, hope, belief or any other fictions. Fully developed mystics simply know from their experience of Reality.

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SIN

There is no such thing.

Humans believe anyone who does anything immoral or unethical, anything deliberately harmful physically or mentally, (including emotionally) is sinful.

But humans are a passing phase on the way to extinction as they come into their true spiritual status.

Mystics achieve a status of very high consciousness of existence through the actual personal experience of the Mystical Experience of the Reality (MER), in which we all exist whether we like it or not. They have responded by submitting, submerging themselves to Reality.

Unlike many ideologies such as religions, coercion is no part of this call (which is in all of us whether we listen or not. Your turn will come, in Reality’s own good time).

This absorbtion into Reality is irrisistible, welcomed with joy and humility. Mystics can be believed – there is no such thing as sin in their mystic experience.

So Sin is only a human word, limited to the human race. It has no meaning or even existence in MER.

Yes, the word sin exists in all religions but probably lost its proper, more loving MER meaning – to ignore one’s calling to Reality – after the religions’ mystic founders died.

Was sin – and is it still – a disciplinary device to promulgate each religions’ interpretation of how humanity must collectively reach its destiny by us all doing as we’re told while we’re here, in faith, belief and hope, i.e. by “faking it until we make it”, rituals, symbols, songs, dresses and funny hats, wound head gear, beards, covered faces, subduction of species and so on, and so on – manmukh!, manmade stuff?).

The bottom line of being human is simple: you are your only access to MER.

Religion and society and their artificalities are no excuse to ignore your true, individual, custom made destiny awaiting you in Reality.

As for Society, that greatest of sins against MER, it must serve your needs, not the other way round. You are not an ideological commodity.

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MUGGLES!

Question: You refer to Muggles now and again. I think I know what you mean but I notice you often reveal a deeper meaning when you write things out, like you do with these Questions and Answers. So can you tell me what you really think”Muggles” means?

Answer: Well Muggles is the word J.K. Rowling uses in her Harry Potter books to describe ordinary, conventional people who live conventional lives, who don’t know anything about magic and don’t want you to tell them about it either because they don’t think for themselves. They are more comfortable following the prevailing cultures, taboos and mythomanias of their times.

Q: Isn’t that normal?

A: Absolutely!

Q: So why does it sound so pejorative?

A: Because that’s J. K. Rowling’s skill in using context to make it sound insulting so as to achieve her narrative purposes.

Q: Isn’t it also insulting when you use it?

A: No. I use it in what humans would call a spiritual context. So I use it as a description, not an intended insult. I use it to make the point that most humans at humanity’s present level of evolution have not experienced Reality.

Most people haven’t any idea of what you’re talking about, don’t want to know and can get very angry if you persist, rightly so in my view.

I never do talk about Reality except to genuine Seekers and Mystics.

Sufis have their own ways of putting off the merely curious without the curious even knowing.

Q: But the subject of mysticism is widely discussed, especially among the world’s scholars and scientists, even philosophers and theologians, as you have often written.

A: Yes, it is. But most of it is without the experience of the mystical experience of Reality. Without that special experience, which is caught not taught, much of what is said and written about Reality is gossip, rumour, conjecture, surmise, hearsay, sometimes sincere but nevertherless still sincerely wrong – completely artificial, like religions and other political idealogies masquerading behind morality and ethic in religious movements, and “social justice” in mythomanic political circles.

Q: Do you believe in magic?

A: Magic is a human word. It’s used to explain the inexplicable. But in Reality there are no words, no names, just Reality.

There was nothing human in my MERs, no “magic”, nothing inexplicable, just what humans who have experienced Reality and come back would agree is ineffable. Reality Rules.

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MYSTICISM IS NOT A PHILOSOPHY.

Mysticism is not a philosophy. It is a personal, individual experience of a Reality beyond human consciousness, logic, reason or intuition.

This is why those who have experienced it have such an ineradicable conviction of the phenomenon’s existence.

They have experienced a powerfully non biological, creative, joy of giving, knowledge, a oneness of all embracing existence of everything, even matter, that is completely beyond mankind, on a level beyond all human consciousness, measurement or interference.

Philosophy on the other hand is all supposition, mind stuff like logic and reason for instance; ideological like socialism, communism or religions, none of which even have successful human experiences to support their mythomania.

All Is Well.

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NEVER DIE

After the mystic experience of Reality, the adage, “Those who live by the sword die by the sword” can be translated as, “Those who are in but not of the world never die.”

This is only a surmise or intuition about the purpose of mystics arising from my personal experiences of MER.

But mystics, who have had that mystical experience, while seeming to be in development like ordinary humans, are on a different level of evolutionary development that does not include the survival of the human species as we know it today.

Are mystics a different species, as Bucke and Sinetar have already noted in their books written about 100 years apart?

Can we speculate that the human condition is the equivelant of a nursery garden designed by Reality to evolve all species into just one species, mystics, and that non mystics at death are in the process of entropy? After all, scientists say 99% of all earth’s species have already become extinct.

Certainly mystics are of a higher consciousness, if my experiences of the mystical experience of Reality are anything to go by …

I heard that a doctor of psychology told a friend I am hundred of years ahead of the human race. (I presume she meant all mystics).

Except for my consciousness, which is very definitely different and far ahead of most humans to the extent I can’t take humans seriously, I can’t say one way or the other what the good doctor said about me is true. But is it?

All Is Well.

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HUMANKIND’S DEFAULTING MIND

QUESTION: In your poem “Mystics” you have a line, “man’s defaulting mind”. What does it mean?

ANSWER: Mankind, (or humankind to be up to date), thinks on the level of consciousness that is only physical, material, matter.

But deep in every human is what we could call the undeveloped soul. It only makes its presence felt in the rare humankind experience of the Silence.

That experience roils the stomach, softens the heart, stills existence with a joy beyond human understanding, gifts a deep personal sense of everything belonging, a knowing that is unperceived by the generality of mankind but stays with that human all its life in an evolution of individual, personal development that finally becomes something not fully human in this life and nothing at all after death. (This is the same problem we will see in ‘aliens’ when they arrive here or we arrive there – wherever and if they are anywhere …).

This still unrealised human part of a universal soul nevertheless prompts some humans into a life longing hunger and thirst for something without knowing what it is.

Others experience it in full however and are known as mystics – if they let themselves be known at all.

And then there are the majority of folk wherein their portion of the cosmic soul remains unborn. They live in default, just in their minds and emotions.

These are the innocent “defaulting minds” developed mystics feel suck the life out of existence. This emotional mind is at the heart of all evil here, intentional or otherwise.

On the historic evidence of mankind’s existence so far there seems little sign of any lasting effect of human attempts to change this primitive situation, certainly not by anything political for instance.

Perhaps mysticism, that becomes completely embedded in individuals so beyond any outer human intervention ie: political or religious, is what human evolution is all about? Some scholars in history, even to this day have already posed that very possibility in varying ways.

Mystics:

Few here of their kind,
Orphaned souls
No parents find.
Entombed in man’s mortality
And man’s defaulting mind,
Neither human, nor sublime:
Lost, yet Divine.

Nanaimo, 2011.

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A “MYSTIC SUMMIT”!

A “MYSTIC SUMMIT”! February 1-6

“Including 40 scholars, teachers, contemporary mystics”

A follower of this web site sent me this notification in January. She asked me what I thought. This is my edited reply:

“Very depressing. They think mystics are here to help mankind. That was not in any of my experiencs of Reality.

“In my experiences, mankind is a seething obstruction to Reality of lust, anger, greed, attachments and ego.

“True mystics, from my experiences and awareness of the historical phenomena of mysticism, are deliberately withdrawn from this world as part of the mystic processing that takes them far beyond human existence. I am.

“Furthermore, mysticism is caught, not taught, cannot be evangelised or prosyletised nor can it be used as a palliative for the human condition. Experience of it is guarded by an impregnable security system – the actual experience of Reality itself. Even the religions don’t have that. It’s baffling science, too.

“As the Christian book says, “Many are called, few are chosen”. So if as it seems, these people have not experienced the mystic experience of Reality (MER) enough to even lift them out of this worldly activity they’re advertising, they’re just stumbling. They’re not mystics yet. Their qualifications and reasons for any mystic identity are doubtful, to say the least …

“The best I can say for these people is they may be sincere but they are sincerely wrong. Their present state of existence cannot help humanity, not even real Seekers.

“Anyway, so far as the human condition is concerned, Reality is in charge, not us.

“Thanks for telling me about this though – sad as it makes me …

Big social distance hugs,
Keith.

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HIGHER HUMAN SELF II

If you watch Professor Gino Yu of Hong Kong Polytechnic University being interviewed on the Closer To Truth series on Consciousness, you may wonder if it’s eastern mystics who are going to find it easier to eventually inherit existence than western mystics.

Professor Yu affirms the eastern difference in addressing consciousness from an experiential attitude rather than an intellectual one.

Are western scientsts and academics stuck in matter, physicality – the antithesis of the experience of Reality?

Not if Professor Yu has anything to do with it. He expands his assertion.

As I understand it, he says being aware of the Actual, always deliberately applying consciousness to everything seen and felt with the personal attributes of consciousness we already have, is nearer the truth than using our mind/intellectual processes that only deliver surmise, not the proof from actual experience of Reality.

Which all mystics, east and west, north or south, of whatever colour, of hot climes or cold, in whatever culture or lack of one, in all phases of history, have known all along.

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HIGHER HUMAN SELF I

The idea of religion and mysticism being about the achievement of one’s Higher Human Self came up in a paper by a Punjabi PhD university professor recently.

(The paper also declared a preference for what he called an original Sikhism being all about the religious/spiritual superiority of animals compared to Sikh mysticism influenced by colonialism, so I didn’t take the paper too seriously). 

But if my spiritual experiences of Reality can be taken seriously, the achievement of one’s higher human self may be a religious mission but it  is certainly not the trancscendental purpose of mysticism. 

Humanity was no part of my experiences in any way whatsoever. There was nothing human in them, not even Keith Michael Hancock eventually.

For all we know, and that Bucke and Sinetar have mentioned in their  books, separated by nearly 100 years, mystics might be a separate species, 

Are mystics the result of millenia of extinction of earth/cosmic species? After all, 99% of all biological/and earth growth species are extinct according to modern scientists. 

Will mystics be the last trace of humans eventually? Is all remaining trace of humans  eliminated after death? Is that the process we’re in – is that what it’s all about?

Whatever mysticism is here for it certainly isn’t to achieve our higher human selves whatever that is, although mystics are automatically, axiomatically, decent, honest and legal from what I can glean from my experience and readings. 

Personally, all I promise humanity is I will try to be legal, decent and honest, but that’s it!  Humanity will get no more from me than that. There are more important things afoot than being merely human, even than being one’s “Higher Human Self”.

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SPIRITUAL RESISTANCE?

Academia.edu sent me a doctoral paper on resistance to MER, the mystical experience of Reality. I didn’t know such an impossible thing existed and that it apparently has a such a name in psychology.

I deleted the paper as irrelevant to the focus of this website. But it is fascinating for its glimpses into the kind of analysis scholars are bringing to the subject, though I think they have it wrong when they call it ‘resistance’. Why?

Because any real, spiritual resistance is the teaching of MER Itself. MER teaches not to discuss the personal, individual experience with anything other than Reality Itself. Those who do will get imprisoned in the very life entanglements MER is there to abolish.

Human history is littered with the remnants of those imprisoned, tortured, killed, defamed, had their work burned, were banished or what one ‘universal’ church presumptuously calls “excommunicated” from practicing only that church’s ‘truth’, or wiped out like the Templars and ‘heathens’. Another still promises violent punishment for rejection of their ‘peaceful’ faith. Look what happened to the biblical Jesus. Molinos too, despite Papal support, and Guyon, though who has heard of these blessed individuals nowadays?

True mystics keep their experiences to themselves, don’t evangelise, teach, preach, prosyletise or explain. Marsha Sinetar found this out in her attempt to study the MER phenomena for her book, ‘Ordinary People As Monks And Mystics’. She could only get 300 very reluctant participants. Even they only seemed to respond to her specific questions rather than offer very much personal about their MERs. (Even though the good lady gave warm support to my early website she was reluctant to get into the subject personally too …).

So the obfuscating phrase “spiritual resistance” is a human phrase meaning resistance to human interest, not MER interest. (There we go again – egoistic human arrogance assuming humans are the underlying value against which all experiences, ie.consciousness, must be appraised. Such hubris).

If scientists, scholars, Muggles, and those of their ilk can’t get over their inbuilt prejudicial, bigoted idea humans are the centre of all cosmic reality then they’re doomed to eternal defeat of their own purposes.

After all human endeavour to understand MER is done, experience of Reality is still the only key to Reality. ‘Resistance’ is unthinkable, impossible. Surrender is more like it.

All Is Well.

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SPIRITUAL DOUBT.

By retired surgeon Anthony Good, a follower of mysticexperiences.net

Introduction: This is a remarkable first person document of lasting value to Mystics, Seekers, and those academics and scientists around the world who study our subject. It was an easy decision to ask for permission to re-propagate its contents here, for which permission was given immediately. – Keith.

Spirituality has, for me, always been immersed in doubt. I was brought up an atheist until I could think for myself when I moved onto the agnostic fence.

I could find no logical way to God, and even Soren Kierkegaard, the nineteenth century existential philosopher and theologian said that at some point there had to be a leap of faith, which I found hugely disappointing. How could faith be relied upon, when so many put their faith even in everyday things and are let down? I sensed a risk of falling into wish fulfilment.

The religious cultures I found so foreign, with constant referrals to faraway times, places, and ideas. Religious folk unfortunately are sometimes the worst exponents of the moral principles their creed advocate. (As I write there is a continuation of the unfolding sex abuse scandal in the English Roman Catholic Church.) How can the organised religions be so convinced of their God and yet reject each other’s; who is right, who am I to believe, where am I to put my faith?

Though many folks have a sense of spirituality outside the mainstream religions, it is poorly organised and without support outside the secret societies of the Masons and Rosicrucians who are often held in suspicion, and can attract hostility. So where does one turn?

Then there is the enormity of human suffering, from wars, failed political ideologies, disease, natural disasters I need not go on. How is all that accounted for in God and spirituality?

Nor was there evidence that God did not exist. Doubt looked both ways.

A Spiritual Opening

The existential crisis and spiritual opening were the game changer. There had been a couple of hints in past years but now this was like a slo-mo spiritual party cannon explosion of dreams, reveries, living mythologies, visualisations, spirit encounters, revelations, and far too many improbable coincidences. Before this curtain opening in my late forties, I would have considered its significance highly doubtful. It had to be experienced to be believed, then things will never be the same again.

I was pulled off the agnostic fence to at least follow this opening. There was no doubt about the experiences, but what they meant, or where it was taking me that was different. However, what appeared to be new truths were being laid before me and this was a kind of embodied living of what was happening rather than just some kind of thinking thing. It’s not willed, it breaks in, it is not lead by thinking, it leads.

The journey stripped away the old dependable truths, to the point where I was alone looking into darkness, a broken deconstructed character, and new truths doubted. I felt on the very edge of sanity.

Diminishing Old Doubts

Spirituality, had to be directly experienced, when it brings its truth value. Could I accept truth without having to understand it? The mystics say this experienced truth is higher than the trickster intellect. After all how many rational arguments and lines of logic have found their way into false conclusions?

I found my experiences were consistent with the mystics whether psychologists like Carl Jung and Roberto Assagioli, those from the main religions, and even the great artists, writers, and poets. They formulated an interconnected tapestry of consistent truths that revealed the push and pull of our existence.

Is it not unfair to expect the followers of the organised religions to be perfect, or even live up to their ideals, can anyone else do that? They are caught up in human failings like the rest of us even if also like us they cannot see, or even want to recognise them.  

I found faith in the authenticity of my experiences, without them I would have stayed on the fence, faithless, and doubtful as before.

My perspective on my life is of course human with an egoic orientation, but the true reference point for our lives may be the soul wanting to learn and grow into wholeness, holiness.  Oh, and how convenient to blame something else for our errors, an all supposedly loving God. Mankind has free will, and so how could God be omnipotent; man has to take responsibility, at least until man’s free will is perfectly aligned with God’s will? There is though enormous not knowing.

So if it’s true that we are looking at the work of effectively an infinite mind no wonder there is doubt and we need guides to find our way through. So many people seem to think they know the unknowable God. An egoic trap?

New Doubts on the Journey

Gradually, day by day experiences, contemplations, revelations, and more, have built up internal and external consistencies formulating what looked like the truth. Doubt has been diminished but waxed and waned.

For example, I recently had this dream; I was looking up at the sky with my dear wife and birds were flying over us when a big shaggy dog appeared jumping across the sky. I told her that when I saw Pegasus in the sky that is what it looked like, seemingly impossible but still able to walk on air. Then I saw the dog as a sheep, and then it broke up into birds. All along what I had thought was a dog running over the sky was an illusion of just birds coming together like the murmuration of starlings or swirling of a shoal of fish.

Is all experienced as spirituality merely a misinterpretation? Derren Brown the extraordinarily talented English illusionist when asked if he believed in God said he did not because he knew how the mind could deceive itself. The dream could have referred to sheep following dogma. Was I at risk of forming my dogma out of illusion and following that, sheep-like? Yes, of course. 

More recently I read the excellent book, ‘The Master and His Emissary’ by Iain McGilchrist (he is on YouTube). It is an up to date account of lateralised brain function, and how the relative predominance of left and right brain function has influenced history.

Spiritual experiences are held in the right brain which cannot directly vocalise; could we be tapping into this during the spiritual journey? Is this fascinating hidden part of the brain trying to create a seemingly legitimate false reality for our lives out of mostly lost memory cuttings?  I doubt that I have the imagination, sophistication, or creativity to construct what I have experienced spiritually, with its multi-layered complexity, intricacy, and revelatory push. But could spirituality be the dark side of the brain, and nothing more, or is our brain triggered into activity by something beyond it?

Could I be following a self-constructed elaborate fiction to live by, but then you don’t need to be in spirituality to do that! McGilchrist says that when people don’t believe in God, they find something less worthy to believe in.

Journeying with Doubt

Doubt is diminished by relating to events that go beyond our control or construction, such as synchronicities, predictive dreams, manifestations, and coincidences too improbable and frequent to dismiss easily, episodes of being rescued by unlikely circumstance or out of character individuals, and much more that cannot be explained by mere mental working and chance.

Maybe the most fundamental dissolver of doubt is a very solid and deeply felt sense of rightness about what is experienced (and not merely willed into creation by thought). Is this the faith that people describe; it’s not confected, wished, logicalised, but felt very deeply building up from experience and contemplation over years. It often, maybe usually, arrives without invitation, and is surprising.

Doubt, I have heard it said, is a necessary part of the spiritual journey, and will be with us to the end. The journey has eventually brought me to encounters that are more believable than not. There will always be a fear of self-delusion, but that diminishes with an honest appraisal of what I encounter. To wrestle with the truth and doubt and maybe God too is the surest way to find the right path on the journey to a purpose of our existence.

For now, I hope that in recognising my doubt, (and all its companions; faith, hope, wanting, fear, love, knowing and not knowing, and others) I can avoid being controlled and biased by it and relate to what comes in the next step with openness and balance as a seeker of truth.

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CRITICISED FOR USING THE TERM, ‘MERE HUMANS’

QUESTION:  You have been criticised for using the term “mere humans” in your posts.  Does this indicate bias, bigotry, or prejudice against humans?

ANSWER:  Yes, I think it does. I suppose you want to know why?

Q:  Well yes.

A:  After my multiple annual experiences of Reality I was strangely constantly lead away from friendships. I was friendly, but not a friend. I did not call intimates my friend and was uncomfortable when people claimed me as a friend; sometimes their best friend.

Friendship was a commitment to which I had no loyalties. In fact I have shed ‘friends’ from my schooldays to the present all over the world. They just drop like autumn leaves as my life develops. There just seems no life in them. This includes family in particular.

When I came to realise this, I lived with it then eventually came to my present conclusion that I am existentially wedded to Reality to the exclusion of anything like human reality.

Q: Alienated?

A:  If that’s a technical word in the human, psychological sense then, yes, I am probably ‘alienated’.

Q:  So how did this affect your human life?

A:  Drastically, from a human point of view. Nothing in my schooling,  human ambition or career expectations seemed relevant. Now I know, they aren’t. 

Most of the people I come across are unconscious of the forces that rule their consciousness. Rowling, the author of the Harry Potter books, calls them ‘Muggles’, Gurus call them ‘sleepwalkers’, academics call them ‘unrealised’, ‘unauthenticated’. Some of my closest acquaintances are ‘second hand’, rely on society, tv and magazines, religions, authorities, for their values.

My closest acquaintances might be all those things but in my eyes have the redeemable quality of being thinkers. They have minds that are developed somewhat. They use them with openess to any possibilities, have an active even if weakly active, developing consciousness.

Q: One of your followers asked you if you find it difficult to deal with people as a mystic. 

A:  Yes. I remember babbling a forgettable reply to this person because I’m better at writing my thoughts than voicing them spontaneously. Fortunately I was rescued at about 40 years of age with small talk. 

Small talk was a real blessing because before that I was a sweating, total wreck at meeting people at the general conversational level of religion, politics, relationships, marriage, babies, children, gossip, etc.; all the general inconsequentia of human life, much of which, probably all of which, is artificial. 

Until then I totally avoided parties, ceremonies, formal and private social gatherings, and still do to some extent. Breakfasts, lunches or dinners of no more than eight people are alright though. I can manage those. After my sudden gift of the ability to small talk however I now have no problems if caught out having to consort with strangers occasionally.

So when I refer to “mere humans”, I refer to the presently primitive but developing condition of the human race as it is carefully cultivated by Reality to its destiny. The present dichotomy between humans and Reality is presumably closing in good order, in Reality’s time, not ours. All Is Well.

Q: Why do we have mystics then? Are they messengers, teachers?

A:  Generally I have no idea. But my personal mystic experiences were quite clear – to leave humans alone, leave everything to Reality. Study Reality by all means but don’t waste time on mythomania, the artificiality of the human mind running in default … or, as the Quakers might say: Let Go And Let God. 

Probably this is why I was so determinedly lead away from “friendships”, to keep me focused on my true destiny, to avoid the mystic trap of evangelising, prosyletising my version ofvthe universal phenomena of the mystic experience, avoid starting a religion or social cause, a clay footed ideology? Perhaps the sudden gift of small talk was a helpful compensatory gesture?

So to answer your question, Why Mystics?, it could well be that mystics are being groomed at a different level to fulfill their destiny after human death.

Q:  Is God Reality?

A :  No. Reality is much bigger. Though Reality does still include “mere humans” Reality is not a human god.

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