A NEW REVELATION?

Did I have what Christians would call a new Revelation?

I was reading this quotation by Ron Krumpos in his new paperback of, ‘The Greatest Achievement In Life’:

“The (mystical) experience itself is felt to be sufficient and complete. It does not come in fragmentary or truncated form demanding completion by something else. It does not look beyond itself for meaning or validity.”  Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan, former President of India

It gave me a sudden, startling, serendipitous reminder of my mystical experiences, plunged me into that joyful state of knowing my true self in what I have come to know as Reality.

Reality engulfed me again; joyfully, humbly, irresistibly. I shook.

Later, I wondered if this was the answer to a persistent urge to know even more of the Reality of my experiences.   

The ‘answer’ seemed to be that difficult to explain but impossible to ignore feeling to, Just be. Be just what Reality is creating. 

I had been feeling for some time that, we are given what we are ready to absorb, as much as our capabilities can bear! No one is first, no one is last.

It also confirmed what a Sufi master once told his initiates, there really are no failures.

All Is Well.

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BELIEVE IN ‘GOD’?

QUESTION: Why shouldn’t I believe in God?

ANSWER: My more than 30 years of multiple annual spontaneous mystic experiences of Reality convince me your ‘God’ is too small.

Your religiously created ‘God’ is man made. Individual spirituality existed long before religions, if my experiences are to be believed.

(Religions only happened 10,000 years ago according to the Cambridge psychologist Nicolas Humphrey).

But if you get some sort of payoff in believing in your ‘God’ then don’t let anyone stop you, including me.

Q: Why are you so against what you call the ‘God’ of religions’?

A: Because the religions teach that their ‘God’s acceptance of you is contingent on your acceptance of religions’ rules. To me, this is an unforgivably monstrous, potentially spiritually crippling lie. 

Reality is real. It does not lay down expectations. It does not  condemn, demand worship or obedience, punish, or reward. It doesn’t care whether you believe in It or not because Reality believes in you.

Reality recreates everything known and unknown. It is satisfied with its evolving creation. It is in charge without your ‘help’ or understanding. That is the actual historical mystic experience.

You are satisfactory to Reality in all things because you are of Reality Itself. It accepts your existence unconditionally, joyously, axiomatically. You were in Reality at the beginning as you will be at any end, whether fully realised as yet or not.

Religions on the other hand are the personification of spiritual ignorance for saying otherwise because they have not recognised or accepted the historical mystic experience of the Reality which is the very ground of all existence, including us. 

Q:  Phew. 

(Long pause in silence).

Q:  Then what happens to morality and ethics without religion?

A: Morality and ethics came with human birth before religions, as you will understand if you see the startling BBC film series that followed babies from their birth to adulthood. (The Humanists agree I think but I don’t know anything about Humanism or how they arrive at this conclusion).

So far as the morality and ethics of religions are concerned you only have to read their bibles to see the endlessly disgusting preaching of the foulest perverted human behaviour in war or peace. Hardly moral or ethical teachings! 

Though people say the New Testament is different it displays the disciples as being more interested on which side of the throne in heaven they’ll be seated. It reports betrayal, denial, fantastic feats, impossible career promises to followers, even geographical error. 

Q: Then how do people find the truth?  

A: By actually experiencing what real mystics experience.

Q: But I thought you said you can’t do that?

A: True. In my experience and reading, the mystic experience of Reality, MER, is caught not taught, as I have been saying ad infinitum.  

Q: So are you saying, leave everything to this Reality of yours?

A:  Yes. But if you really are called incurably to ‘hunger and thirst’ for truth then the best solution I know is ‘to know yourself’ by listening intently in the silence.

Absorb, submit – beware of phenomena, ignore the distractions of human attachments; anything mental or physical. 

True spiritual tradition says ‘the rest will follow as the night the day’. Try it. Like most things spiritual, results come unobtrusively like an anaesthetic. But the process needs special patience and submission. 

(“That which you seek seeks you” is a traditional spiritual lesson of comfort).  

Just beware religions leading you astray. There’s no such thing as a Christian or any other kind of mystic Reality, just Reality.

All Is Well.

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IS ‘REALITY’ JUST ANOTHER NAME FOR ‘GOD’?

NO!  

The true experience of Reality is defined by markers common to all such true experiences throughout history. But revealing them here could encourage pretenders so I won’t.

Sufficient to say the traditional tribal, cultural ‘God’ of war, threats, bullying, misogyny, land theft, exclusion, plagues, disasters, coercion, fantasy, deceit, anger, favouritism, anthropomorphism and religions, are no part of the mystical experience of Reality, (MER) which so ensnared our culturally limited, undeveloped ancestors. Is this why religion all over the world is now dying?

MER is the very antithesis of such ‘godlike attributes’.

There are many names throughout history for phenomenal experiences, including the word ‘God’. Not all of them are true mystical experiences of Reality. 

I was brought up to believe in a God before my experiences began. I expected, and was bewildered, disappointed, when there was no ‘God’ of any description in any of those experiences, then or after.

I am beginning to think the make up of the Reality I experienced throughout 15 years of my life from the age of 15 is made up of the same elements found in the cosmos, including humans.

We’re told these elements include water, oxygen gas, O2, and most organic compounds, carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen, proteins, nucleic acids and thousands of others science doesn’t have a reason for them being there …

Nevertheless, the Reality mystics experience is not human. Reality may have all these ingredients but they are on a completely different, commanding, creative level to our as yet undeveloped selves.

Reality is in charge, according to my revelations. Reality is beyond our limited free will. It is benign, asks for nothing, not even worship or prayers. In my experience Reality is only interested in individuals. It is loving beyond human experience or description. And we are of it. The experience of Reality is an experience of total joy and trust beyond description. That’s the very basic mystic experience of Reality. 

The word ‘God’ in any language describes a false, human fantasy, ‘God’ is not the Reality in which we really live – whether we know it yet or not.

All Is Well.

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SPIRITUALITY AND THE BRAIN

This is a review of an excerpt from an article in mindbodygreen.com about a remarkable new scientific study of spirituality and the brain. My comments about it appear at the end of the excerpt.

“Spirituality and the brain: What’s the connection? We’ll admit, the neuroscience has been a bit limited (even though research has gotten closer to mapping the specific brain circuit responsible for spirituality), but Lisa Miller, Ph.D., an award-winning researcher in spirituality and psychology and the author of The Awakened Brain, is on the case. 

“Specifically, she combed through MRI scans of participants who have struggled with feelings of sadness (blues) to assess hether a sense of spirituality had any effect on their mental well-being—and, frankly, the results are astounding. “People who [had] a spiritual response to suffering showed entirely different brains,” she says on this episode of the mindbodygreen podcast. “They showed not thinning but thickening across the regions of perception and reflection, the parietal, precuneus, and occipital [regions].” 

“In other words, a sense of spirituality can have a huge impact on your brain health and mood. The question becomes: How do you incorporate spirituality into your everyday life? According to Miller, a deep sense of awareness is not tied to religion, per se—rather, the ability to connect spiritually is innate within us. 

“‘We are all born with this capacity to see into the deeper nature of life, but the muscle has been left to atrophy in the great majority of people in our country,’ she says.


MY COMMENTS

Dr Miller echoes historical reports of this latent spirituality existing in all humans. However she offers no data about ‘all humans’, though I happen to think it’s true, just that we can’t do anything about it ourselves.

However, Dr Miller seems to assume anyone can rouse this inner ‘spirituality’ on their own. My mystical experiences of Reality (MER) have, as I have reported ad nauseam on this Blog, indicated to me the experience of Reality can only be caught not taught.

So is the doctor talking about something other than MER? Has she discovered a part of the human brain that is just used by Reality to receive MER? 

And why does she seem to assume that what she has discovered is all about humans? In my experiences MER is vastly greater than any single part of the infinite cosmic creation.

For the full report, see 4 Ways a PhD Uses Spirituality to Bolster Mental Health at mindbodygreen.com.

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BUDDHA ETC

A follower mentioned how Buddha exhorted his disciples to enlighten mankind. 

Buddha probably recognised the perennial path of evolution running deeply and largely unrecognised in humans, (or what my mystical experiencees tell me is in fact the source of everything – Reality).

However, evidently the Buddha did not know or did not realise a lesson of my (updated?) mystical experiences over 2,000 years later.

This was that only Reality can bestow Itself – that the reality of all existence is only caught by those prepared by Reality itself, not taught, not even by wisdom schools, religions, etc.

It seems to me as soon as the mystical experience enters through the individual on whom it bestowed then human organisation eventually degrades it into mere human morality and ethics.

The followers’ observation was that, “Abandonment and quiet resignation are probably the only meaningful responses!”.

I replied this overlooks the realisations to be found in the Silence. You can’t abandon your humanity but you can relegate it to its true place, replace it by going into the recesses of the experience of the Silence. This will get you through the error of giving unnecessary priority to painful worldly human mind stuff …

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REALITY

QUESTION:  I’ve heard you say “we’re not ‘wired’ to know the whole of Reality yet’’.  I think I understand, but could you go into that a bit more?

ANSWER: What humans in general and physicists in particular regard as reality, that is, everything that’s physical, material, (as well as everything that’s physiological and psychological, eg. moral and ethical), are only transitory products of our current stage of evolution. 

Our knowledge of existence is currently limited to such material properties and whatever the ages we live in dictate. They are temporary.

Some world shaking physical laws like the theories of relativity for instance, evolution and DNA are only a generation or so old. As for our morality and values they seem to change with each generation.

Q: So are you suggesting reality is always changing?

A: Human reality, yes! But the Reality the mystics know should not be seen as just changing. It’s developing. And It develops us from stage to stage.

Q: Are you suggesting what you call Reality exists independently of our will and that it’s causing us to discover it?

A: Yes, real Reality is all existence, outside and inside all creation – but No, we’re not slowly “discovering” real Reality. We’re just uncovering entropic, material and human ‘stuff’.

Reality is developing everything, including us. Reality is revealing Itself – from outside ordinary, dying human experience …

Q:  So why do mystics experience this and not the rest of humanity?

A: I don’t think anyone knows. I was certainly not qualified by any standards known to humanity at the age of 15 when I first started having what I have come to know as mystical experiences of Reality, (MERs). 

Q:  A psychologist once said you are hundreds of years ahead of the rest of us!

A: Yes, but I don’t know if that’s true. I haven’t noticed particularly. The question is more of a human concern anyway.

It could be this particular psychologist thought she recognised traditional spiritual descriptions of the mystic phenomenon that she surmised described me. Her father was Brahmin. 

Q: In other words she was saying you, all mystics, are ‘wired’ to know more about existence than the rest of us?

A: I can’t speak for her, but yes! mystics are ‘wired’ to know more about existence than the rest of us.

Q: So are mystics what we are going to be?

A: Yes! Mystics are at a more developed stage of evolution. They are more ‘wired’.

All. Is. Well.

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THE BEATITUDES?

Question:  I know you are skeptical of spiritual reading matter but is there any one thing you could recommend to a Seeker from personal experience?

Answer:  Well, no, because my mystical experiences of Reality (MER) were spontaneous. So I believe such revelations are, like mine, not human; they are caught not taught.

MER is not a thought, a philosophy, an ideology, religion or social construct. Reality is all that has and always will exist. It is not imaginary. Only It can develop all existence – and without human input!

It is the keystone, bedrock of all existence everywhere, on earth and off it, throughout the cosmos and beyond, beyond even mind, beyond even remembrance or forecast.

I’ve not come across any actual evidence, human or otherwise, to refute the experience of Reality.

Q: What kind of ‘actual evidence’ would you like?

A: The actual first hand experience of MER, as opposed to literature-learned, or taught, hearsay descriptions! This would be the only acceptable evidence of personal experience of MER, Reality’s existence.

The existence of Reality is hard to ‘prove’ because It is safeguarded by being ineffable, except to those individuals who experience the phenomena!

Q: So what is the lesson of Reality to humanity, if any?

A: As Reality only addresses itself to individuals, the only lesson that humans can take from It’s existence is that the individual’s real meaning and development primarily comes exclusively from Reality, not religions, communism, socialism, communalism, fascism or other such ideologies, not even human logic or reason. These have rightly been called the enemies of mankind’s evolution – mere human ‘mind stuff’, clutter.

Q:  So getting back to my original question – nothing to recommend then as reading matter for the spiritually inexperienced or uninvited? (Laughs).

A: No. But I must say, the Beatitudes as reported in the Christian bible by Matthew and Luke are obviously the observant work of someone who knew of the existence of Reality. Hard to tell if this is the author’s actual experience though.

The mistake of the author of the Beatitudes was in thinking these eight blessings or graces, can be realised by human effort. No they can’t, not in my experience.

Only individuls prepared by Reality will be able to receive the Beatitudes in the fullness of their experiential meaning. They are not accessible to any collective social, political, religious groups or idealogical associations. Only to individuals.

Evidently however, the Beatitudes’ biblical authors thought otherwise. They understandably but mistakenly thought the Beatitudes were supposed to be taught to humans. They can’t. Individual experience is the only key to personal transformation. Only Reality has this key and It is impervious to worship or idolotry.

However, those who have experienced MER are automatically, axiomatically graced by an experiential understanding of the Beatitudes, (despite their archaic 17th century King James era translation) – each according to the level they have reached in their spiritual development.

It should be added that the Beatitudes are only a narrow selection of MER’s fullness.

They are wasted on the uncalled – those stuck at the level of merely wanting to be better humans. The called already have the Beatitudes or are getting them in other forms, and more.

Actual spiritual experience of the Reality of existence wins over mere human faith, hope or belief. There is no spiritual value in Fake it Until You Make It either!

However, to answer your question, I do think reading and studying the Beatitudes might at least provide the called with a serendipitous validation of their spiritual state of development, a refreshing interlude along their Way.

All Is Well.

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WHERE DO MUSIC, LOVE, BEAUTY AND EMOTION FIT IN WITH MYSTICISM?

They don’t! Mystics with very developed experiences of mysticism regard music, love, beauty. art and emotion as human experiences, distractions that die with humans.

In mystics they evaporate as the mystic evolves.

For this reason you often hear the description of Seekers and Mystics as people who are, “in the world but not of it.”

Human love for instance is made up of lust, anger, greed, perennially actual or mythomanic attachments, and of course ego, the last to go …

But the love experienced in MER, (Mystical Experience of Reality), is primarily complete oneness of existence in all things as all things are one in you.

The result is a powerful joy beyond anything as singular as mere human love. Human love is motivated essentially by selfishness, ego, self satisfaction.

Music appeals to ordinary humans on different levels. Mainly emotional, on escapism as exemplified in pop music for instance, particularly in rock and roll, or classical music like Bach that stirs more biologically refined, deep, personal, existential, visceral feelings.

Art rearranges the make up of our currrent human perception, our chemistry and physics too, but is just self pleasure.

Art takes us nowhere spiritually. It’s not permanent because as its name implies, it’s not real, it’s just artifice, artificial, a copy, idea or indulgence expressed in human opinion.

Beauty can be described as the same non lasting self serving state too. Beauty is another visceral womb that can become equally distractive in the call of Reality to Seekers.

Emotion can become a human addiction too. It can overcome the fundamental  evolutionary human need for logic, reason and pragmatism, with much else needed to preserve balance in personal and community life.

All these attributes are merely human cauldrons of impermanent, boiling ingredients of development at a very basic level.

You can see why some spiritual paths warn their pupils of these wasteful, distractive powers and suggest going into the Silence as a means of defeating them.

It’s interesting to note that the wisdom schools (and replicas of them like the original, pure Quakerism, Taoism, Buddhism, for examples), don’t or didn’t go in for any of the above clutter in their practices.

For all these reasons it can be seen why monks and wisdom schools separated 80 per cent of the population from themselves, why they only invited truly called Seekers and Mystics into their sanctuaries.

The sanctuaries that didn’t use this discipline are either a spiritual irrelevancy nowadays, or extinct.

This doesn’t seem to be a problem though. My experiences reveal the call to Reality is only for individuals who are, in ways yet unknown to us, called to a permanent Reality even in these early, primitive days of human evolution.

All Is Well. Reality is in charge.

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MANIPULATIVE?

Question: Your posts seem deliberately terse, brief. Is this accidental or deliberate?

Answer: Deliberate.

Interestingly, another reader of this Blog sent me her observations on how and what I write:

“Your message is ‘authentic’ and only those who have the instinct will truly be able to follow.

“The simplicity in your messages is working.

“You are passing the questions to the seeker.”

I try to stick to the point, examine it in detail, expound it simply, avoid the temptation (not always!) of deviations, additional explanatory material or background. I use my short ‘one sentiment per sentence’ formula, with no more than three sentences per paragraph, (also not always!). No clutter.

Q: Is that to make it easy to read and digest?

A: It’s to manipulate the mind not to skip through the post – speed bumps if you like …

Q: Oh! (Laughs). A friend and I were just discussing how the posts can stick in your mind! Almost like meditations … spell-like.

A: Yes, the posts can be treated as meditations. Used as such they can take you to the depths of Reality’s intentions. Depends how deep you can go, how spiritually advanced you are.

Different aspects of the depths of these posts might be explored for life, depending on how far you mature spiritually – they’re only the surface of what you and Reality are all about.

Q: But won’t different people get different answers?

A: Variations, yes. Depends on how deep their spiritual lungs can take them through the levels of experience.

Each level of discovery is different, a bit like experience or age bringing new levels of thinking and awareness into ordinary human life.

Q: Wow, I had no idea about all this … No idea … it’s like you’re casting spells. (LOL).

A: Mystics and Seekers may pick up resonances that cause them to slip into meditation. The results could make the ‘spell’ bloom, filling them with what Sufi’s call its ‘spiritual perfume’.  

Q: Alright … so whatever post you might make of this communication could be a ‘spell’?

A: Here it is, take a deep breath, try it!

All Is Well.

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KNOWING YOU’RE CALLED

Q:  How do you know you’re called?

A: I think the description of someone being ‘called’ is an inaccurate human reference to the mystical experience of Reality, (MER), that make some humans into mystics. 

Mysticism isn’t a calling as if it’s some practise/profession of human activity. Mystics aren’t called, they’re absorbed into Reality and released back into humanity.

Q:  Why?

A:  No one knows. Even serious scientists who accept the phenomenon say it’s ineffable, indescribable.

Q:  Why is that so?

A:  Because Reality is not human, it’s nothing to do with humans as humans are now. That’s my intuition. There were no humans in my MERs, even I found myself watching myself disappear eventually. There was nothing biological involved whatsoever.

Q:  The monasteries were said to examine would-be entrants for a personal ‘calling’ before they were admitted. 

A:  I don’t know the entry rules for today’s monasteries but real gurus of today do look for genuine Seekers in order to assuage what the Christian bible calls such people’s “hunger and thirst for righteousness”, (Matthew 5:6).  This passion is unique to true Seekers everywhere.

Q: Jesus said he had faithfully delivered his message to those already prepared by God. Isn’t this what mystics should be doing?

A:  No. I think it was that human desire to spread the word that inexorably made Jesus’ mission fail and finally brought the religions to their end days. Religions lack the real thing, spirituality, because MER is spiritual, and it’s caught not taught. It’s not a social ideology either.

Q: What can I do to find out if I’m really called?

A:  if you are truly called, the posts on mysticalexperiences.net may help you identify yourself as a made, genuine Seeker – separate from about 80% of the human race whether you like it or not. Each post in the blog is as genuine a representation of my MER experiences as I can make them. 

You won’t have to read the whole blog to know if you are in fact a humble, submissing Seeker or not!

All Is Well. Reality Rules.

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DEALING WITH ATTACHMENTS

Ordinarily, humans don’t notice their attachments, their umbilicals. Seekers do.

Seekers see and recognise their attachments as spiritual impediments in their way.

By regular concentration of their minds on each of their attachments until the point of enchantment if needs be, Seekers will find the attachments gone.

They may not even realise the attachments have gone for a very long time. This is because with the distractions gone Reality has moved them on their way to more important things.

Recognition of and concentration on your attachments to the exclusion of all else will be noticed!

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MUGGLES!

Question: You refer to Muggles now and again. I think I know what you mean but I notice you often reveal a deeper meaning when you write things out, like you do with these Questions and Answers. So can you tell me what you really think”Muggles” means?

Answer: Well Muggles is the word J.K. Rowling uses in her Harry Potter books to describe ordinary, conventional people who live conventional lives, who don’t know anything about magic and don’t want you to tell them about it either because they don’t think for themselves. They are more comfortable following the prevailing cultures, taboos and mythomanias of their times.

Q: Isn’t that normal?

A: Absolutely!

Q: So why does it sound so pejorative?

A: Because that’s J. K. Rowling’s skill in using context to make it sound insulting so as to achieve her narrative purposes.

Q: Isn’t it also insulting when you use it?

A: No. I use it in what humans would call a spiritual context. So I use it as a description, not an intended insult. I use it to make the point that most humans at humanity’s present level of evolution have not experienced Reality.

Most people haven’t any idea of what you’re talking about, don’t want to know and can get very angry if you persist, rightly so in my view.

I never do talk about Reality except to genuine Seekers and Mystics.

Sufis have their own ways of putting off the merely curious without the curious even knowing.

Q: But the subject of mysticism is widely discussed, especially among the world’s scholars and scientists, even philosophers and theologians, as you have often written.

A: Yes, it is. But most of it is without the experience of the mystical experience of Reality. Without that special experience, which is caught not taught, much of what is said and written about Reality is gossip, rumour, conjecture, surmise, hearsay, sometimes sincere but nevertherless still sincerely wrong – completely artificial, like religions and other political idealogies masquerading behind morality and ethic in religious movements, and “social justice” in mythomanic political circles.

Q: Do you believe in magic?

A: Magic is a human word. It’s used to explain the inexplicable. But in Reality there are no words, no names, just Reality.

There was nothing human in my MERs, no “magic”, nothing inexplicable, just what humans who have experienced Reality and come back would agree is ineffable. Reality Rules.

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NEVER DIE

After the mystic experience of Reality, the adage, “Those who live by the sword die by the sword” can be translated as, “Those who are in but not of the world never die.”

This is only a surmise or intuition about the purpose of mystics arising from my personal experiences of MER.

But mystics, who have had that mystical experience, while seeming to be in development like ordinary humans, are on a different level of evolutionary development that does not include the survival of the human species as we know it today.

Are mystics a different species, as Bucke and Sinetar have already noted in their books written about 100 years apart?

Can we speculate that the human condition is the equivelant of a nursery garden designed by Reality to evolve all species into just one species, mystics, and that non mystics at death are in the process of entropy? After all, scientists say 99% of all earth’s species have already become extinct.

Certainly mystics are of a higher consciousness, if my experiences of the mystical experience of Reality are anything to go by …

I heard that a doctor of psychology told a friend I am hundred of years ahead of the human race. (I presume she meant all mystics).

Except for my consciousness, which is very definitely different and far ahead of most humans to the extent I can’t take humans seriously, I can’t say one way or the other what the good doctor said about me is true. But is it?

All Is Well.

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SPIRITUAL DOUBT.

By retired surgeon Anthony Good, a follower of mysticexperiences.net

Introduction: This is a remarkable first person document of lasting value to Mystics, Seekers, and those academics and scientists around the world who study our subject. It was an easy decision to ask for permission to re-propagate its contents here, for which permission was given immediately. – Keith.

Spirituality has, for me, always been immersed in doubt. I was brought up an atheist until I could think for myself when I moved onto the agnostic fence.

I could find no logical way to God, and even Soren Kierkegaard, the nineteenth century existential philosopher and theologian said that at some point there had to be a leap of faith, which I found hugely disappointing. How could faith be relied upon, when so many put their faith even in everyday things and are let down? I sensed a risk of falling into wish fulfilment.

The religious cultures I found so foreign, with constant referrals to faraway times, places, and ideas. Religious folk unfortunately are sometimes the worst exponents of the moral principles their creed advocate. (As I write there is a continuation of the unfolding sex abuse scandal in the English Roman Catholic Church.) How can the organised religions be so convinced of their God and yet reject each other’s; who is right, who am I to believe, where am I to put my faith?

Though many folks have a sense of spirituality outside the mainstream religions, it is poorly organised and without support outside the secret societies of the Masons and Rosicrucians who are often held in suspicion, and can attract hostility. So where does one turn?

Then there is the enormity of human suffering, from wars, failed political ideologies, disease, natural disasters I need not go on. How is all that accounted for in God and spirituality?

Nor was there evidence that God did not exist. Doubt looked both ways.

A Spiritual Opening

The existential crisis and spiritual opening were the game changer. There had been a couple of hints in past years but now this was like a slo-mo spiritual party cannon explosion of dreams, reveries, living mythologies, visualisations, spirit encounters, revelations, and far too many improbable coincidences. Before this curtain opening in my late forties, I would have considered its significance highly doubtful. It had to be experienced to be believed, then things will never be the same again.

I was pulled off the agnostic fence to at least follow this opening. There was no doubt about the experiences, but what they meant, or where it was taking me that was different. However, what appeared to be new truths were being laid before me and this was a kind of embodied living of what was happening rather than just some kind of thinking thing. It’s not willed, it breaks in, it is not lead by thinking, it leads.

The journey stripped away the old dependable truths, to the point where I was alone looking into darkness, a broken deconstructed character, and new truths doubted. I felt on the very edge of sanity.

Diminishing Old Doubts

Spirituality, had to be directly experienced, when it brings its truth value. Could I accept truth without having to understand it? The mystics say this experienced truth is higher than the trickster intellect. After all how many rational arguments and lines of logic have found their way into false conclusions?

I found my experiences were consistent with the mystics whether psychologists like Carl Jung and Roberto Assagioli, those from the main religions, and even the great artists, writers, and poets. They formulated an interconnected tapestry of consistent truths that revealed the push and pull of our existence.

Is it not unfair to expect the followers of the organised religions to be perfect, or even live up to their ideals, can anyone else do that? They are caught up in human failings like the rest of us even if also like us they cannot see, or even want to recognise them.  

I found faith in the authenticity of my experiences, without them I would have stayed on the fence, faithless, and doubtful as before.

My perspective on my life is of course human with an egoic orientation, but the true reference point for our lives may be the soul wanting to learn and grow into wholeness, holiness.  Oh, and how convenient to blame something else for our errors, an all supposedly loving God. Mankind has free will, and so how could God be omnipotent; man has to take responsibility, at least until man’s free will is perfectly aligned with God’s will? There is though enormous not knowing.

So if it’s true that we are looking at the work of effectively an infinite mind no wonder there is doubt and we need guides to find our way through. So many people seem to think they know the unknowable God. An egoic trap?

New Doubts on the Journey

Gradually, day by day experiences, contemplations, revelations, and more, have built up internal and external consistencies formulating what looked like the truth. Doubt has been diminished but waxed and waned.

For example, I recently had this dream; I was looking up at the sky with my dear wife and birds were flying over us when a big shaggy dog appeared jumping across the sky. I told her that when I saw Pegasus in the sky that is what it looked like, seemingly impossible but still able to walk on air. Then I saw the dog as a sheep, and then it broke up into birds. All along what I had thought was a dog running over the sky was an illusion of just birds coming together like the murmuration of starlings or swirling of a shoal of fish.

Is all experienced as spirituality merely a misinterpretation? Derren Brown the extraordinarily talented English illusionist when asked if he believed in God said he did not because he knew how the mind could deceive itself. The dream could have referred to sheep following dogma. Was I at risk of forming my dogma out of illusion and following that, sheep-like? Yes, of course. 

More recently I read the excellent book, ‘The Master and His Emissary’ by Iain McGilchrist (he is on YouTube). It is an up to date account of lateralised brain function, and how the relative predominance of left and right brain function has influenced history.

Spiritual experiences are held in the right brain which cannot directly vocalise; could we be tapping into this during the spiritual journey? Is this fascinating hidden part of the brain trying to create a seemingly legitimate false reality for our lives out of mostly lost memory cuttings?  I doubt that I have the imagination, sophistication, or creativity to construct what I have experienced spiritually, with its multi-layered complexity, intricacy, and revelatory push. But could spirituality be the dark side of the brain, and nothing more, or is our brain triggered into activity by something beyond it?

Could I be following a self-constructed elaborate fiction to live by, but then you don’t need to be in spirituality to do that! McGilchrist says that when people don’t believe in God, they find something less worthy to believe in.

Journeying with Doubt

Doubt is diminished by relating to events that go beyond our control or construction, such as synchronicities, predictive dreams, manifestations, and coincidences too improbable and frequent to dismiss easily, episodes of being rescued by unlikely circumstance or out of character individuals, and much more that cannot be explained by mere mental working and chance.

Maybe the most fundamental dissolver of doubt is a very solid and deeply felt sense of rightness about what is experienced (and not merely willed into creation by thought). Is this the faith that people describe; it’s not confected, wished, logicalised, but felt very deeply building up from experience and contemplation over years. It often, maybe usually, arrives without invitation, and is surprising.

Doubt, I have heard it said, is a necessary part of the spiritual journey, and will be with us to the end. The journey has eventually brought me to encounters that are more believable than not. There will always be a fear of self-delusion, but that diminishes with an honest appraisal of what I encounter. To wrestle with the truth and doubt and maybe God too is the surest way to find the right path on the journey to a purpose of our existence.

For now, I hope that in recognising my doubt, (and all its companions; faith, hope, wanting, fear, love, knowing and not knowing, and others) I can avoid being controlled and biased by it and relate to what comes in the next step with openness and balance as a seeker of truth.

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WHAT ARE QUIETISTS?

Can Individuality Survive?

QUESTION: You suggest you are a ‘pratyeke’ in a buddhist meaning of your mystical experiences of Reality, then seem to leave it at that, letting your readers make of it what they can.  But will you explain what you think pratyeke means in your case? 

ANSWER: I read that “Quietism” is no longer fashionable in some spirituality tainted ‘social justice’ religious circles, but it does seem to describe me. I accept everything known and as yet unknown. I make no attempt to bring about change, not even renewal. I think this describes Quietism and Pratyeke. I don’t “double guess” Reality. So I am a ‘Pratyeke’, or ‘Quietest’.

Reality revealed to me that All Is Well  – “In good order” as the Quakers might say about the human condition. 

I therefore know it is a spiritual regression when humans attempt to interfere with the Creation and its individuals, now or ever. 

Human history is littered with the devastating consequences of attempted and always failed impatient interventions, assumptions, mythomanias, taboos, and hubris, violence and violation – resulting in monumental meddling and disaster for all individuals, in whom Reality lives. 

That’s why all attempts to interfere with individuals ‘for the good’ of some religious or secular mind stuff like the Inquistion for instance, or Communalism and Socialism, all eventually fail – because Reality lives in individuals, not collectives, communities or ‘societies’ that are not even based on human realities. 

By challenging the seminal state of individuality, misguided people are challenging Creation, Reality. No wonder ancient and contemporary histories reveal the inevitable failure of all such attempts. 

All of which of course makes it easier to understand why Quietists or Pratyeke mystics are not called upon to get involved with humans, except with Seekers. Reality is in charge, Pratyeke’s and Quietists will certainly survive. Individuals not so much by the looks of humanity today …

All Is Well. Reality prevails, as always.

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