The spiritual life is a calling. You cannot decide you will have a spiritual life because you think it’s probably a good idea, because you want to be a better human being, or because you’re curious.
Not to worry if you’ve not got to that stage. There are no failures, no one is left behind. You are as precious as the first even though you may think you are the last. In fact there are no first or lasts. All is well, and in good order.
The true Seeker however will eventually know that what he or she thought they sought, seeks them.
The whole idea was put in your mind. It was not your idea. If you are a Seeker, you are ready whether you know it or like it or not. You are accepted, much loved, much nurtured, and protected on levels of understanding no man, woman can transfer to you, but which will be revealed to you personally. You are being readied. All is well; then, now and for ever.
Note: There are citations for all these assertions. You’re very welcome to present them. But I thought you would prefer to hear my personal experience at this early stage, not just acquired, second hand, regurgitated references anyone can access.