That dratted word, “my”.

A Christian on the Internet objects to the use of “my” – as in when I say, “in my experiences” – when I draw on the spontaneous annual mystical experiences of Reality (MER) I had from about 15 to 35 years of age, to make posts on this web site.

He says my use of the word shows ego. Ego, he says, is not found “on the mystical plane”. He asks who am I to offer myself as an authority.

But my use of the pronoun is to say, “this is only my experience”. I use “me” as a qualifier to caution readers as to the identity of the source of my anecdotal, personal experiences. My experiences are the only authority I offer.

Another reason I use the word “we” is because I have to use a human language historically developed to express experience of the material world. But MER cannot be explained or experienced in terms of the material world.

I am trying to share experiences of a spiritual phenomena that cannot be explained by materialism. MER does not exist materially. It has no body or brain, it just is everything and everything is it. It has no need of language or explanation. MER can only be experienced, caught not taught.

So I am just sharing my mystical experiences to help me get as full a comparative understanding of them from others’ experiences, comments, writings, likes and emails – as I now do from among 68 countries including scientific sources around the world I had no idea were taking mysticism so seriously.

For instance, if I had not started this web site I may not have come across the likelihood of being a pratyekabuddha. (Coincidence? I’m not sure).

Apparently a pratyekabuddha, or paccekabuddha, is the so-called “silent buddha” who does not try to share his or her realization with the world.

Pratyekabuddhas are said to achieve enlightenment on their own, without the use of teachers or guides, by “dependent origination”, (spontaneity?).

Traditionally, Paccekabuddhas give moral teachings but not enlightenment. (See unedited descriptions in Wikipedia).

I certainly do not give “moral teachings”, or ethical ones for that matter as they’re man made, not to be found in Reality – according to my experiences.

Nor can I or anyone else so far as I am aware “give” enlightenment. Enlightenment is, as I say above, caught not taught.

Nor do I feel called to be a master, teacher or “authority” on enlightenment or Reality!

Many mystics who felt otherwise and presumably engaged in human affairs because that’s what they thought they were called to do, failed. The material world brought them to very bad ends.

Modern mystics, of which there are said to be many more than there used to be, seem to know better. They keep to themselves.

So the Internet Christian’s misunderstanding I reported in the first sentence above is a reminder to me of the advice I got from a Master with millions of non monetarised followers around the world who few humans even know about.

He cautioned me about posting my experiences to spiritually unqualfied Internet social sites like Facebook etc. So that’s why is not posted to those sites now. Yet the blog grows organically almost daily.

Obviously I shall have to be even more circumspect. Mysticism is clearly only for those who have ears to hear as the ancient saying goes …


  1. What is experienced is more important than what we know.

    “Those who know do not speak. Those who speak do not know.”
    ― Lao Tzu, Tao Teh Ching

    Yet, we continue to speak and write about it.


    1. Do I get a sulphurous whiff of your remaining ‘attachment’ here, to the mind stuff of logic and reason that George Fox the founder of Quakerism, called, “notionalising”, the antithesis of MER? 😑


      1. I am afraid I was taking the piss out of the poor fellow. I should never have commented or got involved with him. Conflict never does either side any good. It was some while ago now and I don’t think I would make that mistake again. I hope not anyway. Letting go would have been the more mature option!


  2. Lol!

    I was tempted to join in and answer his arguments myself, sentence by sentence, but found myself reminded of the Dalai Lama when he was reported as saying “the clever person knows how to answer but the wise one knows when not to ….” Seems you agree with His Holiness too.


    1. You are so right. I think and hope I may have learnt my lesson. Letting go feels so very good (and right). I had a very amusing evening at a little country church round the corner this evening. I joined them for a rehearsal and am going to sing with them in the carol service on Sunday.

      The old dears were all bickering like fury, arguing over every bar and how it was to be sung. Should this be a b flat, was that an a natural. Was the organist playing too loud/fast/slow.

      I did a lousy job and didn’t know the music but it was such gentle amusement to sit there quietly and observe. To note that even at this quietest end of the social spectrum conflict and one upmanship was the name of the game.

      Of course one problem of letting go is that most human endeavors come to seem fairly comical and shallow. But there again they probably are.


  3. Realised people can suddenly dissolve into unbidden waves of uncontrolled mirth, bathed in a joyful sense of incredible wellbeing and lightness. Then it’s hard to take anything seriously. This indicates real spiritual development at work. It’s a glimpse into knowing that everything just is, and we are that.

    All is incredibly well.

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