QUESTION: How do you know your mystical experiences of Reality are true?
ANSWER: Because of the ineffable but undeniable, implacable, benign power that revealed my true existence as an eternal non human being since the beginning of all things, Its revelation of my inclusion of belonging then, now and forever. It was literally stunning to feel so accepted, loved, freed. This was my destiny, my reality. I was and am always Reality and Reality was and is always me.
I never wondered about any of this. I had no idea of the existence of such an experience. It was entirely unthought of, beyond anything I had ever experienced, or ever expected anyone to experience, totally spontanious, assuring.
Q: How could you live as a human after that!
A: With lasting difficulty. I kept these experiences to myself for 60 years. I had them several times a year from about 15 years of age into my 30’s.
Q: You never wanted to shout them from the housetops as the saying goes?
Q: Why not?
A: I never understood them.
Q: So what made you ‘come out’ when you did.
A: I came across a book of yoga that seemed to hint at my experiences. I began to wonder if the phenomena might be known after all. The book, by Paul Brunton, didn’t make me feel any urge to take it further though.
Some time later, in my fifties I came across an older couple at a house of a group of friends who spoke with familiarity about what I thought were my exclusive experiences. I was astounded.
The couple subsequently introduced me to what has been called a little known school of Sufism that teaches millions of its world wide adherents what only I thought I knew – my experiences.
That eventually lead to my “coming out” to the then Master of the School. Later, after preparation, I was finally initiated.
The School impressed me by inviting its adherents to stay in its growing new town in India for free for three months every year in modern western style accommodation in the cool season. We were never asked for money, even told not to send postage for the Master’s replies to any letters he encouraged us to write to him about our progress. He said, “adequate funds are provided.”
It was here I first learned about mystics. Much later, from outside the School, I came across the Buddhist reference to pratyeka buddhas, which leads me to believe that’s what I am, but not a buddha. A pratyeka buddha has personal experiences of Reality like me, and does not teach, preach, evangelise or prosyletise from these experiences either.
Q: Quite a journey. Why are you here do you think?
A: I think mystics like me could be part of some purpose of developing consciousness. I’m not sure yet.
Q: Human consciousness?
A: No, not human consciousness! Ultimate consciousness, of which human consciousness could be a part on some level.
Q: You’re not curious?
A: No, I’m not curious. I’m content. I’m in good hands. All Is Well.
Q: Can other ordinary humans have these mystical experiences?
A: If they “hunger and thirst” for Reality as the Christian bible suggests, then they are already called. I was just one of those that didn’t hunger and thirst, but “That which you seek seeks you” the Sufi Master told us. People who do hunger and thirst are in good hands too. “Seek and ye shall find”, also from the Christian bible, is another truism that rings as authentic to me. Again I didn’t seek, but once found, I knew Reality.
As I say, whatever your way, All Is Well. “There are no failures” I’m told.